So does Joaquin. Having massive prostate pains this morning, as I've had a couple of times in the past. So what's how it happens. That's how I die - prostate cancer. Damn, that's not a nice way to go down. But I suppose it's gotta happen some time, right? Thems the breaks. I'm not even that old! If it happens suddenly and I can't inform you all, just assume that if I go one entire year without blogging (from whatever the most recent post is), then I must be dead.
As I was harping on about yesterday, it's so bad when you know exactly what you're doing at some point in the future. Just say tonight at 9pm, I know I'll be at home and probably shaving. How bad is that? Where's the spontinaeity and surprise in life? It's all so dull and pointless. God help us if we ever became aware of our future. This brings me on to an important point. If you know the future, can you prevent it from occurring? If I knew I was going to get hit by a bus tomorrow, would I just stop walking next to roads? Would I just die in similar circumstances, or have I avoided everything? And if I did, it would no longer be the future, would it? My theory is that time is that in order for time to be infinite (which it is thought to be, depending on how you view how the universe will end), it can only be non-linear (i.e. it's a loop, as opposed to a beginning middle and end). But in this loop are multiple loops that contain the past. We in the now live in the outer most ring, being the present, and we cannot go any further into the future. If we developed a way to move into the other loops, we can only go to the past, and then diverge from the outer most loop by making different decisions. This is why we have had no visitors from the future, it is up to this particular loop to go back. All just my theorising, anyway!
The worst question you can ask of me is whether you think I am wasting my potential. Because I know the answer is yes, and it infuriates me, and it saddens me all at the same time. I'm wasting my life doing what I'm doing. And it's unlikely to change. The unsung tragedy of the everyman Joaquin. It gets me down and really makes me feel bad. Oh, if only to do something about it!
What I won't understand is people who don't realise that the world is changing, at a tipping point, if you will. India and China have become global (and nuclear) superpowers by holding their cards close to their chest. China now has the largest military force in the world, and is also the creditor of many nations in debt (including America). What will be interesting is when they call in these debts. In the old days, this would definitely be grounds for war. Does America think it can win a war, hence they hope to just go further and further into debt? America needs to focus more on its internal issues before turning to the rest of the world. It's sort of a 21st century colonialism in its own way. Makes me a bit sick. But life changes, you know. At the start of mankind, we were all Africans and then we slowly migrated and evolved and spread out across the world. Well in the future we're all going to be asian (East and South) in appearance. That's just it, they have the military power, they have the wealth (debt, and the rise of their middle class as an economic force), and they will have the sheer numbers. Life won't be the same, it evolves and moves on. The rest of society gets bred out. It's the natural order of things and you can't fight it. Ahhh, I wonder what the future will be like. Hahaha, brings me back to the earlier topic in this post. See how time goes full circle?? It's a crazy world out there!
Winter is starting to set in, even though it's really autumn, but damn, it is bitterly cold and it's going to be a pain to get through the next couple of months. Already bringing out the hoodie to sleep in at night and be warm with. I need more warm clothes. Perish the thought if we were homeless or poor. I honestly don't know how people survive on the streets.
Was reading the riot act the other day because it's a site about the town I'm in. Anyway, the editor/moderator of the site (which is kind of like news but in a forum sort of way) made a comment that he was afraid of the overcommercialisation of ANZAC Day celebrations, as well as concerns with people who tend to exploit that sort of mentality for jingoism and mistaken patriotism (read: stupidity). I believe he used the term death cult, which attracted the ire of many of the readers/posters on the site. I take umbridge with that, because you can't say a damn thing about the armed services in any country without being torn down, and that's not right. The Australian Defence Force has committed a number of atrocities in wars, yet people brush this off as being casualties of war, or that they're under enormous stress and sometimes butchering an entire unarmed family is justified. What utter bullshit. But anyway, that's not the main point I was trying to make. The editor of the site said that he supports the armed forces and a number of his family members serve, but that the Government and armed forces tend to use such events to glorify death and violence. The veterans of major wars are typically the most vocal anti-war people you will ever meet, because they have been there and have seen the horror and futility of war first hand. Yet now we are getting a generation of soldiers who don't have to fight 'regular' battles where you stand on one side of a beach and shoot at the other guys right in your face. Now they just get to shoot a lot of unarmed civilians and they're loving it. Then they come back home and flip out and kill their spouses and go on other rampages. But that's just so typical of Australia. So desperate to be relevant on the world stage that we must always remember a battle that we lost. And not just lost, lost heavily. All due to a navigational error and we got slaughtered. What other country in the world romanticises a losing battle like that? You better be damned happy we won the war in the end, because that would have looked incredibly sad. But then again, as everyone knows, history is written by the victors.
In terms of guitaring, I've realised that a lot of the half finished ideas I put together and dropboxed actually work well on top of the other's half finished dropboxed ideas. How exciting! That would be the ultimate, wouldn't it? Finishing off the same idea independently of each other? Still need to work on consolidation though. Should also figure out what I need to do with recording, since my base soundcard is prettttyyyyyyy crap!
Work sucks (I know), hahaha! The question I have to ask you is very important. What do I do with the 2 and a half hours I have left of the day?
Sometimes even the best laid plans...yeah, yeah. I know. I'm feeling so tired! Just want to go home, eat and veg out on the couch. No computer at all. But then again, how am I supposed to post this? Haha!
Ran into Rossco today. Haha, I can tell he's uncomfortable around me, but that's his problem, not mine! I hate the guy. What a tosser.
Damn, even with a busy day, I've still managed to get some pretty damn good blogging in. Hmmm, at some point I should start going back and tagging things, just to see whether readership goes up. A bit dodgy, I know! But dirty tactics are my specialty!
Wow, was just looking up salary rates at the ANU and goddamn! They are paid better than my field of work. I can't believe an academic institution, which goes on about low funding, pays so ridiculously high. Well I'm not saying that they should pay them less. Good pay = best people. But maybe trim some of the fat and get rid of some staff!
You know what I'd really like? To be there at the end of all life. I'd want to be there to witness it. The bookends of society - have we achieved anything? Maybe a bit like The Tree Of Life. I shouldn't have seen that. At least not with you.
What really irks me? When bands that have no public profile are writing good songs. Because it makes me wonder whether it is possible to survive in that industry. Can there be any winners?
Anyhow, Joaquin out.
