Sunday, September 29, 2013

On The Fly

No blognotes prepared this time.  Just playing guitar at night and enjoying the ambience.  Figured I might as well blog while on break from playing.  It'll be good for me.

So tell me, is there something fundamentally wrong with the psychology of females?  There's this new craze at the moment which shames men for getting upset when they get 'friendzoned' by women they are interested in.  Well I take issue with that - why?  Because women who put potential partners in the friendzone are typically the type who like to date men who treat them badly, and then whinge and complain about not being able to find any nice men.  Is there something narcissistic in the mind of a woman where she just wants to be worshipped and adored by everyone, but then choose her mate as someone who treats her badly?  It makes no sense!  Then all the naysayers are saying that guys shouldn't complain because they should be nice to people anyway.  Well again, that makes no sense.  In any relationship, be it sexual or platonic, you are nice so that you gain something in return.  Otherwise everyone would be apathetic to each other.  We don't live in a world of blind pragmatism.  People do nice and good things for a purpose/reason.  For those not in the know, being 'friendzoned' means that a partner regards you as more of a friend, and does not view you as a mate, lest the relationship become too difficult.

I've been procrastinating with guitar all evening!  This isn't good by any standards.  But tomorrow I still have the whole day to myself and it's a rest day so I'll be living it up doing whatever I want.

But damn, I think I'm done.

Bed time for me.

Joaquin out.

Friday, September 27, 2013

Depending On Exhaustion

I'm utterly wiped.  I don't know how I'm going to function this evening when I'm already so tired first thing in the morning.  I've also got a fair bit of work to do today, so it might be a short one today, I'm afraid.

Everyone is in the same place except for me.  I'm on the outer all the way over here. 

Damn, I wanted to talk about genetic variation in the species, but there's just no time.

Anyway, I'm done.

Hopefully some blogging on the weekend.

Joaquin out.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Mistaken Trust Beggars Belief

They give people too much control and credit these days.  Is there anyone to count on?  When the times are good?  When the chips are down?  Someone to really have your back?  No, because everyone else is bound by something else.  And I just fell between the cracks.  And here I am, trying to discern whether what was said was real or just sarcasm.  I'm second guessing myself, and things aren't making sense.  At least until I can be sure.  But how can one be sure with no time on their hands?  It's simply time I don't have.  Maybe I'm just overthinking things, and actions speak louder than words.

The current conservative government in Australia (that was just recently elected - the one I rallied against in a fairly recent post) has floated thoughts of re-instituting their voluntary unionism policy at universities.  Now I hate the conservative government, that's a given.  In fact, I'm not that big of a fan of the left either, and I guess I'm even losing faith in 'democracy' because it doesn't exist in the real world.  But anyway, I'm a big fan of this policy.  When I was in university, we were charged about $200 per year to be part of the University's union, even if we did not use any of the services they provided.  Taking that choice away was a pain in the ass, and for students whose profit margins are so slim, losing money like that is just not a position to be in.  So to offer the CHOICE to join the university's union, it is a good thing.  Those who want to join can, and those who cannot afford to do so, or don't use the services can refrain.  If only they instituted the policy when I was in university!  $200 over 5 years, that's $1,000 that I no longer have!  Though I'm sure I blogged about this a long time ago.

Did I destroy someone?  Completely and utterly?  Myself, yes.  A shadow of what I was.  Are things permanently in place?  I continue to second guess myself, and I'm not sure of fact, as that distinct from fantasy.  These meaningless gestures.  There is no starting point.  It either is, or it isn't.  And to think, I thought there was nothing.  I was obviously wrong.  Play the same hand differently I suppose. 

Private vs public schools.  For our British friends, note that in Australia, public schools are the free, publically owned ones.  Private schools are the ones that charge fees, and are typically frequented by the 'wealthy elite'.  The issue is that within the past 20 or so years, both sides of government have dramatically increased funding to private schools - all types, religious and non religious schools.  This means that private schools can attract more qualified teachers through higher salaries and better conditions.  Public schools are overcrowded, with typical classes ranging up to the high 20's for every teacher.  That's a bit ridiculous, and the conditions are also very harsh.  More people are tending to send their kids to private school, sometimes to the detriment of their home lives, because these schools are expensive.  But here's the thing, people believe their kids can't have the right start in life unless they are well networked with rich elite people.  And this has a blatant case of middle class envy written all over it.  Going to a private school does not determine how well things will turn out for you in life.  You can be just as smart and successful if you go to a public school.  But parents don't realise that, and I really have great disdain for people who think that way.  I'm concerned because public schools tend to suffer through a lack of funding, while private schools tend to profit so well.  And for what?  For what?

I raise this topic because I had a debate with someone the other day.  In Australia you can get public schools that are single sex - well not in my city, but in other places.  This is a really crazy concept.  I think boys tend to performer better academically and socially in co-educational schools.  I've seen boys who have been separated from girls throughout their entire basic schooling lives, and they have failed to thrive because they can't function around women.  Interesting, cause I would have figured girls would be a distracting influence on guys on an academic level.  But apparently it forces them to compete.  And apparently girls tend to do better in single sex environments because they are not prone to the pressure to behave in heavily sexualised ways because of peer pressure or male expectations.  But if guys tend to do better in co-ed environments and girls do better in single sex environment, isn't there an incongruity here?  We are expecting girls at public schools to take the hit.  That makes no sense!  They can't thrive academically, but they become disposable tools to allow boys to perform better??  How strange.

Goddamn, no lunch today, so no walk to break up my day.  That means I'm feeling all my hours right now.  Still got 2 and a half hours to go until I'm done for the day.  At least tomorrow is Friday.  Got through the week and didn't blow my brains out (hahaha)! 

Looks like things are going to be very busy for the next few days at least.  But I'll do my best to blog whenever I get the chance.  Ahh, 3 day weekend.  I'm looking forward to doing nothing!  There's nothing tangible in any of this, is there?  What of this?  This lack of interaction.  Does it mean what it did before? 

So from a biological perspective, women are attracted to mates who can provide for them and offer protection.  These aren't real things.  It doesn't mean anything from a genetic passdown perspective either.  So do women like the artificial?  Because that lends credence to the silly Good Charlotte catch cry: girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money.  If it's not something real or defineable, then how can there be any happiness in that?  But let's turn that on its head.  Guys want a woman who is a viable mate with good genes.  That begs the question, why aren't women looking for the same thing?  At its worst, you can simplify men (at an animalistic level) to just wanting to procreate and move on to the next available woman.  So why aren't women focused on just landing a guy, getting pregnant and then ditching him?  It makes no sense. 

Wow, just looking at my task list and there's a lot on my plate.  But fon't fret.  I'll get it all done.  I always manage.  Wow, this has been long and ranty, hasn't it? 

Oh well, probably more of that to come tomorrow.  But where did this day go?  I've done work, but I can't exactly remember what?  I guess I'm getting into a daze lately.  Not good.  One thing's for sure, this definitely beats the hell out of my primary school diary! 

So how can we stop big brother?  With governments all around the world trying to one up citizens and convince them that any disobedience amounts to treason, how can you overcome the State prying further into people's lives?  I don't even know if it is possible anymore.  The optimist in me would like to think so, but every day it just seems so hard and it gets harder.  Something major has to happen for it to change, and I don't know what it is.  I'll never understand politicians and their advisers who think that this sort of behaviour is justified or legal.  They should be outed and shamed as the real traitors that they are.

But that's it for today folks.

Take care.

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Get Down With The Soreness

How quickly a few days can change things.  Woke up on Monday early feeling like a million bucks.  Now it's Wednesday and I'm tired and I don't want to be at work.  Then again, that's nothing new.  But at the gym this morning, I could have sworn I pulled something in my right calf, and it feels like I'm on the cusp of an injury there.  Hopefully it disappears tomorrow after weights day.  I'm getting older man, the closer I push 30, the more I wake up not feeling rested, and I'm in pain when I get up.  From my neck to my back every day.  Is this getting older?  Is it all truly downhill from here?  That's not a good sign, these are not good times.  Who would have thought that when I started this blog I'd be talking about the gym as often as I do?  I'm not one of those buff gym douchebags who loves working out in front of the mirror.  Unfortunately, as you get older and your body slows down, health and fitness become a necessity of life.  How sad and boring.  I'd like to be living it up and be dead by the time I'm 40, thank you.

But hey, at least it's hump day, right?  Helps that tomorrow is pay day which helps break up the monotony.  It'll be good to see the account balance go up for a change.  Been living too large lately, but the blame is shared.  Am I getting weaker?  Well every day I'm just fading away.  It's the same for all of us.  When did I become so defeatist?!  It's terrible.  But I guess I've noticed a change in the past few years. 

Today has been an unusually busy day.  I wonder what's going on?  Hopefully things don't get too busy to the point where I can't blog anymore.  That would really suck.  What's with this warmth?  It engulfs us all.  Feeling tired, like everything is a dream.  I could just disappear forever. 

I think the Western world places too much emphasis on founder documents such as country constitutions.  Do you think people who lived more than a century ago (sometimes 2 centuries), would be aware of how things would turn out in the future?!  Goddamn, most of us have no idea how things would turn out within 5 years of our own lives!  Think about how knowledge has progressed!  The average child today would be considered a world changing genius in past times.  And yet we still rely on the words, ideals and thoughts of long dead men to shape our current times, and our future.  That makes no sense, and it's just not right.  It's not like Constitutions actually limit government power anyway.  Most of it is disregarded most of the time anyway.

I'm done with this.  What am I expecting to see when I log in?!

Joaquin out.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Divorcing Process From Procedure

Wait a minute, that doesn't even make sense, does it?  I'm not sure, but it's going to remain as the title for today's post.  What do you say?  I've been through there a few times, but obviously I wasn't paying much attention.  It was otherworldly.  Like I didn't belong.  Walking along lonely streets without even realising who I was.  It's always good to have a few options up your sleeve though.  Reminds me of a few movies I've seen.

There isn't someone like that in my life, is there?  Not really.  Ahh blogging is so good for me.  Much better than tumblr.  Less time consuming also.  Do I have anything for you today?  While I'm pretending to be a faux member of the grey suit brigade?

I'm interested in this situation in Nairobi, Kenya.  Typically when news from Africa gets to Australia, it gets shunted to the middle of the news, so it's less important.  You'll typically see sports results announced before world news these days, which is incredibly sad.  It's also a stinging indictment on how Australians (as well as the West) view the world outside their own countries.  So for those of you not in the know, an upmarket shopping mall (read: risk due to the amount of cashed up foreigners that would be there), was raided by a bunch of terrorists, and they killed about 70 people (based on current counts) via machine gun fire and grenades.  Now amongst the bodies they have found that a white woman was among the dead terrorists.  This characterisation bothers me.  Terrorists can be anyone, that's why they're terrorists.  If you're saying islamic terrorists can only be brown, or in this case black, then aren't you really saying this is 'war on terror' is really a war on religion, with racist overtones?  Apparently terrorists can only be brown or black, and they can only be muslim and they can only be men, based on the stupid assumptions going around at the moment.  Then all of a sudden it's making front page news with big blown up pictures of this white lady wearing traditional dress.  It just astounds me.  How come people like Anders Breivik are labelled as madmen, but if you are apparently muslim, all of a sudden you can't be anything but a terrorist.  Complete and utter bullshit.

Does Keith have too much dignity?  It could be an excuse.

Oh shit, it's only Tuesday!  For some reason, I thought it was Wednesday!  Would have been closer to pay day, but I guess I was not right.  Oh well.  Just need to get through it and the long weekend will be here. 

I've been getting into extra credits on penny arcade, and it's pretty informative.  I highly recommend it.  It's definitely an interesting way to look at games.  But one of the more interesting videos was definitely the controversial one about faith vs science.  A lot of people came down on religion in really violent and derogatory terms.  They professed unwavering faith in the scientific method.  And I guess it is right, to the uninitiated.  But as the point that was made in the video, even science to an extent is based on faith to a degree.  You have to believe what you're doing is right, and what you're observing would be the same for everyone else.  I guess in a way science is quite objective after results are made, but faith is always inherently subjective.  And therein lies the rub.  The other videos on the site are extremely preachy though.  He doesn't seem to exhibit the open mind that he extols.  But you know, hypocrites and what not.

So that busy week hasn't really materialised yet. 

I could really go for some place warmer about now.  It's just a little too cool right now.  I'm not feeling 100% at the moment.  What weird feelings.  And now there's a reason.  Now there's an excuse.  I would have just been down the road!  And I could have potentially never known what lay before me.  I shouldn't even be here.

There was a marker.  There was a reminder.  But that's the keyword, was.  And it's gone.

Always on the right side.  Closer than I thought.  Who could have guessed?  How interesting.  I should have paid more attention.

Goddamn, I've really gotta get out of here, don't I?  Or do I stay?  That's the question.

What the hell kind of post is this?

Well owing to my laziness today, tomorrow will probably be action packed and busy.  We'll see what happens.

Joaquin out.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Abracadabra, Bitches

Hahahaha, oh man!  That's a good way to start things off for this post.  It was a relatively ok weekend?  I guess.  Had plenty of chance to catch up on things.  But now in hindsight, what did I catch up on?  Did I even do anything worthwhile?  Probably not.  But there was some guitar playing, and the skills and memory are coming back.  There's a fundamental difference though, between lead playing and rhythm playing.  Too many lead players get recognition, but I think being a good rhythm player takes as much dedication and focus.  It takes devotion through a lot of repetition, but you also require consistency which can be difficult at times.

Got a few minutes of Chivalry Medieval Warfare in, which was great, and I still dominated the FFA matches I was in.  Even with no practice!  Maybe I'm just too good at that game?  I should get back into Counter Strike Global Offensive though.  That was some seriously intense stuff.

So after that time away from blogging, have I got anything new to say?  Not really, no.  How sad.  But luckily there's only 2 hours left until I'm out of here.  It's going to be a relatively busy week again, so might not be able to get some of my best stuff down.  Then again, I'd need to actually think about stuff, wouldn't I?

What a strange start to the morning.  Having dreams with people I don't recognise.  Despite sleeping late last night, and having a weekend filled with oversleeping, I got up very early today and felt totally fine at the gym.  And throughout my work day!  What in the hell?  Maybe just an anomaly.  I'm sure it'll catch up to me tomorrow.  But we'll see what happens.

I think I'm done with today.

More to come tomorrow.  Hopefully I'll be inspired in between all the work.

Joaquin out.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Sleeping Aggressively

That's my plan for this weekend, that's for sure.  It's been a busy week at work, and I'm still regretting not being at the gym yesterday.  But I made up for it today with an absolutely brutal run.  I almost collapsed when I was done.  But it's good for me.  Next week I'll aim for a full gym session across 6 days.  Hopefully after that, I'll be back to full fitness.  If not, then I guess I just got old.  Might also get some reading in, and definitely less tumblr.  That's for sure. 


Joaquin out.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

A Nothing Day

Yes, it is just one of those times.  I felt like that yesterday, and I feel like that today.  Just everything on autopilot, and not really being here.  Just as some things get easier, other things get much, much harder.  I should have gone to the gym today, but I really really needed the extra sleep this morning.  Something just wasn't sitting right.  And now I'm definitely regretting it because I'm still tired anyway, so what was the point in sleeping in?  At least the gym keeps me somewhat alert for most of the day.  Can't get started, chemical heart.  Sounds about right for now.

I'm hearing notes in music that just aren't there.  It may be impacting my enjoyment of my favourite songs right now.  Well better that then not being able to listen to certain other songs.  Some have just been ruined for me.  Though I'm sure I ruined songs for other people plenty of times.  I think I'm having serious issues with time management at home.  Not enough time in the evening to play guitar.  Too much time spent on tumblr.  Just bad.  Impacting my sleep and life enjoyment.

How behind am I?!  Too many things to do.  These last few updates have been pretty piss poor, and I'm sorry.  Things have been busy at work.  Hopefully it'll ease up a bit over the next few days.  But interesting, my thread thinking about thinking generated some HUGE views.  I wonder what it was?  The sheer insanity of it, or the comments on the stupidity of Australian politics?  Who knows?

Anyway, I'm done with today.

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Why Even Bother?

And we all know what the next words should be.  Or do you?  Haha, you should look into it if you're curious.  Am I stuck in a rut?  I don't know.  Combination of not sleeping enough and just generally being distracted.  It's been unseasonably busy at work lately, which I guess is some sort of welcome relief, but it's a bit hard to get used to. 

Beauty can fade.  Just remember that.  I don't even know where I'm going.

I've got nothing.

Joaquin out.

Monday, September 16, 2013

And...Now What?

It's meant to be spring!  It's so cold and wet.  Feels like winter all over again.  Things don't bode well.  The weekend screwed me over nicely.  I just found it impossible to sleep before 4-5am both Friday and Saturday nights.  So of course cut to last night and I just couldn't sleep at all.  Needless to say, I'm not feeling the love today.  Luckily I still managed to get all my work done, and it's not even midday!  So what to do with the remainder of my time?  Blog of course!

My health is getting back to where it once was, so that's good news.  I'll be back to peak fitness in a fortnight at the most, hopefully!!  Guitar is still not going well.  I have to find the time to play properly.  It's just basically noodling, or doing warm up exercises in a rushed way.  You know things have not progressed well when you're playing basic stuff and making mistakes. 

Looks like I might be heading off overseas again, again for pleasure.  Then it struck me - have I become one of those people?  Travelling the world and not caring about its problems?  This will be 3 overseas trips this year, 6 countries.  Not bad at all.  And now look at me.  What am I even??!

Let's talk about the Taylor Swift problem.  Here is an interesting dilemma for feminism.  She is a successful singer/songwriter who is famous for writing acidic themed breakup songs and is just as famous for her troubled love life.  So she represents a sort of man-hungry woman who isn't complete without a man in her life, and whenever things go wrong, she acts out through song.  So of course, she does not reflect well on feminist values.  But then she's also successful and writes well received songs - the majority of her fans are young females.  So what does this mean?  She makes women look bad, but she's also successful.  And there's the connundrum.

Am I forever growing more suspicious each day.  There's a lot being said which isn't relevant.  But what concerns me is the relevant stuff that is remaining unsaid.  Was I not thinking?  Hmmm, troubling developments indeed. 

Is the world coming around full circle?  What past experiences of mine are now being found again in the future?  Not even that, in the present. 

Like seriously, where the hell did that weekend go?  I didn't get anything done that I wanted to.  I've bought some books to read and I've barely made a dent in either.  And I wanna finish them so that I can get more books.  Not enough people read for pleasure anymore.  Is it because school sucks out the love of reading from us?  I wanted to read more so I could get away from screens.  Just too many of them in my day to day life.

I was reading a little while ago about how there's a school in England where kids can attend classes as they like, or else they're free to spend time as they like (playing etc.).  Apparently after a few days, all the kids willingly attend class.  Why is this?  Even in my own circumstance, I find myself learning things more in-depth than when I was in school.  I think the difference is passion.  If you want to learn about stuff, then you will.  And it becomes easier.  How we go about education in this age is a joke.

But I'd better end it here.  Not a bad effort right?  I may not be able to blog tomorrow, but we'll see!

Joaquin out.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Thinking About Thinking

Could it go downhill from here?  Perhaps, but we shouldn't be thinking like that.  Friday is here and it's nice to be able to relax and not have to be anywhere or do anything when I go home tonight.  I just want to do nothing, not even exist when I get home.  Things get harder on all fronts.  Is there no aspect of my life which could get easier?  Not really.  It's a change in the tides, it's a change in the seasons.  Best just to keep to myself and soldier on, as always.  kd lang was on to something with constant craving.

The gym was an absolute killer today.  I think my body is just tired, but I'll be fine as I return to peak fitness.  I'm still a bit sick, so attaining maximum oxygen flow is not entirely possible.  I should be playing more guitar though.  There just isn't enough time to get it all done on a regular work night, but I'll aim to do better from next week, but I'll definitely be hitting it up tonight and over the weekend.

Again, from right under my nose!  I could see this sitting on the dock of the bay.  What stupidity.  It would be everyday!  Maybe even easier.  But that life is long behind me now.  New failures and disappointments are in front of me.  And how wonderful is that?  I suppose it could turn around any second, so better to do what I can about it now. 

So we voted in the conservative government the other day, and we also have a bunch of obscure parties being represented in the Senate.  How did this happen?  It appears that the Australian public couldn't go with the lesser of two evils and they gave into their fear and wanted to punish the incumbents to get back at them.  But I suppose this is good for the people, because they can't realise just how good they have it until things go very pear shaped and every right thinking person can just say "I told you so".

There's not enough risks in my life.  Do I become the risk taker?  How when I'm so used to routine?  I shouldn't even be here.  Let's hope nothing changes in the interim.

What's going on with society?  Why are there so many people with darkness in their hearts?  I mean the stuff that people say these days, it just beggars belief.  I guess it's much easier when it's all said on the web and it's supposedly anonymous, but as Edward Snowden has pointed out, the NSA already know what you're up to!  How can the American people put up with such constant intrusions into their life and liberty?  They don't like it, yet they don't vote anyone out, and on top of that, they are down for profiling and surveillance on minority ethnic groups.  Well if that's how you view things, then you don't deserve to be free, cause apparently you only believe in freedom for the privileged few who are like you.

That's it for today.

Returning to form, methinks!

Joaquin out.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Rights And/Or Wrongs

Well it's interesting to be wrong, even on a hunch.  I actually can't recall when that's ever happened before.  But I'm sure it won't be the last time.  So basically all we require is a little patience.  Who would have thought Axl Rose would have been right after all these years?  It's interesting.  But it also makes things much harder, and I'm winding up back at square one.  Or am I?  Sometimes I could just be overthinking things and they aren't as difficult as I originally thought.  That mode of thinking requires world class genius, and I don't think I have that.  Or maybe even motivation or inspiration, and that's something I'm definitely lacking right now.

Ahh there's just so much to read at the moment and catch up on.  Is it an exciting time?  You tell me. 

Things are going quite slowly because I have a lot on my plate work wise, so you'll have to excuse the lack of meaty posts, but I'll work on that, I do have stuff I'd like to blog about.  At least things have been productive at work.  Getting a lot of crap done, which should hopefully free up most of my Friday to get some good blogging out of the way.

I'll keep it there for now.

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

It's A Question Of What You Want

I'm back and blogging.  Sorry for the downtime, just haven't been here or able to get on the net to blog.  I've made a return to the gym, and boy, it was not good.  I survived, but I struggled.  I can tell that these past 2 weeks without the gym have been bad for my waistline, as I've definitely put on weight.  But it'll disappear as I gradually build up my fitness and endurance.  I'm also incredibly tired.  I can't wait for the weekend to roll around, and luckily it is close by since it's been a shorter than usual week.

You'll have to give me some time to get back to my blogging best, cause I can tell you that I am just totally not with the program right now.  But I'm sure that will change with a bit of time. 

Getting back into guitar slowly.  I'll get it back, don't you worry! 

Hopefully some better stuff for you tomorrow. 

But until then!

Joaquin out.

Friday, September 06, 2013

Bastardisation Of The Ranks

Then it pretty much becomes meaningless, doesn't it?  Despite going to bed earlier last night, I still felt absolutely wasted this morning when it was time to get up.  I need time to rest and just relax and overcome, but I don't even get such luxuries.  And that's the problem I guess, the basic things I need to survive and thrive are now considered luxuries. 

Am I too late for this party?  I don't even know if I was invited to this shindig.  Very Great Gatsby-esque in a way.  Still haven't managed to play anything, and I probably won't get a chance to.  I just need to sleep.  Sleep for a long time and that's it!  But that's not even mine anymore!  Ahhhhhhhh!!!  I'm going nuts.  Cause I can tell that my mind is not with the program, and I'm just running slower.  I could do with a reboot, if such a thing was possible.

What's on my mind lately?  Not a lot.  Don't even think I've been able to use a critical mind towards anything for a while.  Just been living and experiencing.  Lost in unreality for some reason, though.  But we have the election coming up tomorrow in Australia and things are not boding well for the incumbent labor party (for our American friends, they are like our democrats).  That's a shame, cause the opposition conservatives are just batshit insane and it looks like they are going to win an easy majority.  That's the thing about Australians.  They want to punish the current party so much that they are willing to have the whole country fall into disarray by electing a bunch of racist, sexist pigs.  And that's just who and what we are as a nation.  It speaks volumes about us.

It's been a weirdly busy couple of days.  Maybe I'm getting my focus and concentration back?  Haha who knows?  I can't even play games for more than 10 minutes these days without getting bored.  Been getting some work done here and there, but it's not overly busy at the moment. 

I'm gonna leave it here for now.

Joaquin out.

Thursday, September 05, 2013

Chained At The Hip

And that's where the difficulties arise.  Can anything be done?  What does anything else mean?  And here I am again, being forced to do something against my will.  When will it ever end?  Probably never.  Just doomed to just keep doing this forever.  And my own death is the only respite?  That's not much of a goal, is it?  Here I am, typing away and I can feel my eyes closing.  Why am I so tired?  I didn't want to get out of bed this morning at all.  I need to start sleeping earlier.  Not helping that I'm going away again this weekend, and have to be up painfully early on Saturday.  Not fun.  Well at least next week will be a short week and I don't have to be at work.  That's something, right?

They've released a new total war game by way of Rome 2!  Yes!  Rome was hands down my favourite of the series, and I really miss the battles from that, as well as the hilarious stories I had.  I've still gotta finish Shogun 2!  And the original Medieval Total War, because that allowed for some absolutely epic battles.  It also felt a bit more purist in a way. 

What counts?  Does any of it?  How utterly fascinating things are, despite not being able to explain even a single word of it.  Ahhh I wanna be home and just being lazy.  I'll resume the gym from Saturday, when I'm hopefully feeling better.  It'll be good to get things back on track.

At home
Playing Sega Saturn.

Here's to that.

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, September 04, 2013

Feeling It?

Or maybe not?  I don't know what it is, but within the last few days I've definitely been feeling older and it's hit my body like nothing else.  And this psychological feeling that nothing is going to happen.  At all.  It's just flat lining vanilla-ness and then you're dead.  How strange, especially after having a fantastic time meeting new people.  Apologies for the lack of updates yesterday, but I was out and about for work.  It's also getting a bit strange!!  Work is being taken from me out of nowhere.  From right under my nose!!  What is this??!  I am whatever I need to be.  And I should start with being more active.

More time off is always good, I suppose.  But I haven't really fashioned anything to spend my time on. 

You're not allowed.  Just no.  Where do your thoughts turn to?

This is mine!  Who the hell are all these people??  If only, if only!

I'm gonna leave it here for now.

Joaquin out.

Monday, September 02, 2013

A Day Late, A Buck Short

It was all too much, too soon.  Or at least it's starting to feel like that.  What we would all give for more time, because when you don't have it, it obviously makes things quite a bit harder.

So I have returned from my trip.  I had a good time.  Walking places, eating new food, seeing some amazing sights, and meeting new people.  I was starting to get better, but I managed to get even more sick on the plane ride back.  So that really blows. 

Got some work to do so I may have to make this one a relatively quick entry.  Did you enjoy my sole post from overseas?  Haha, at least I was able to post.  Things were pretty busy most of the time.  I didn't get to catch up on all the instagramming or anything else that I was meaning to, but that's ok.  There's always later.

But let's aim for better with the rest of the week I have.  Ahh but I am feeling ridiculously tired and I don't wanna do anything nowwwwww!  It's always nice to show someone something new. 

Take care folks.

Joaquin out.