Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Doo Doo, Beanie Love!

I've started sleeping with a beanie now since it's starting to get cooler and I am loving it.  Just keeps me so warm overnight, even when the blankets are stolen from me in the middle of the night.  Reminds me of when I first moved out of home and my place was old and large, so heating was a real issue.  I would just don layers upon layers of clothes and just stay warm that way.  It's a comforting feeling.  Haha, also reminds me of that joke on Seinfeld about 90% of body heat being lost through the head, and about being able to ski naked if you had a good hat, haha!

So after yesterday's crazy busy day at work, I am now left with not a lot to do.  This place is surely the white shirt brigade.  Nobody wears colours.  It's like the stereotype of the corporate world, despite working in a non-corporate area!  The nameless faceless masses.  Surely some need to stand out from the crowd?  Well I wear colour.

The question is do I have enough to blog about today?  I don't know, it feels like I'm totally devoid of any ideas.  There's only so much one can take, you know.  Sometimes it all gets a bit too much.  Oh god, it's only Tuesday?  And it's going to be a very different weekend.  Not looking forward to this.  Not looking forward to anything in general at the moment.

What happened to the days when most people died as old people, in their sleep?  Days of lost innocence.  Haha I'm not delusional, people used to drop dead all the time.

Any news with me?  No, not really.  same old, same old.  Tomorrow should be interesting.  And yet there it is, it's always tomorrow.  Never today.

Played guitar last night but it was pretty poor.  A bit disappointed in myself.  You can't just sit there and noodle away.  You have to practice with discipline, or else you're not going to get any better. 

Hmmm, not feeling well after lunch.  Probably ate too much.  I know, I know.  First world problem. 

Ahhhhhhhh, just so over work at the moment!  Just want to stay home and do nothing in particular. 

2 hours until the end of the world?  Oh my god!  How the hell am I supposed to do this?

In Australia we have such a high standard of living...provided you're educated and you live in a capital city.  Otherwise, sucks to be you!  But why is this?  We pay a pretty huge rate of income tax, on top of things like Goods and Services Tax (GST).  God help you if you're in a lower income bracket.  I hate rich people who criticise the poor and say they're subject to all these benefits and handouts and what not, because I would love to see them live like that, even for one day.  What's a sticking point is that infrastructure in Australia is generally pretty piss poor.  Over-regulation and lack of Government foresight has resulted in slow internet, expensive services and items (basically everything is more expensive in Australia, even non physical items).  So basically everyone is getting ripped off.  And yet we still allow this to occur, why?

Bah, my day is getting busy again, and I really wanted to finish that thought!  Ahh, damn it!

Tuesday, Tuesday.  Not feeling well.  What do you want me to do?  Gah, I've had enough of this day.  Let me out of here.  Then again, I don't even want to go home.

Might as well keep it there for now.

Joaquin out.

Monday, April 29, 2013

Busy Days

Just leading one into an another.  Life going down the drain.

Much like a toilet.

Life just disappearing, right before your eyes.  My own.

Yeah, crazy day at work.  Nothing to blog about.

But time to play guitar!

I'm sorry.

Joaquin out.

Friday, April 26, 2013

The Day Of The Nothing

Yes, it really is one of those days!  I had a nice slack day yesterday where I got all my chores out of the way in the morning and then spent the rest of the day playing Chivalry Medieval Warfare, playing guitar, and watching youtube videos.  Not a bad day at all!  It's scary how productive I am when there's nobody else around.  Also managed to squeeze in some gym time and everything was all fine.  Spoke to Sez over Skype, now that MSN is finally dead, and a good time was had.  I should go visit her in Canada at some point.  Maybe when it's warmer over there.  And colder over here.  Not that it isn't cold here at the moment.  I just dread the thought that it's going to be even worse.  Well that's what accounts for the lack of blogging yesterday, it was a public holiday, so didn't really get the time with all the above activities.  Since there was a public holiday on Thursday, obviously most people in my town took Friday off as well (or are faking being sick), so work is pretty empty.

It also means that there's no work for me to do!  Just sitting here at 9:30am (don't worry, I got to work like 90 minutes ago), and wondering how I'm going to pass the time.  At least I'm seeing Anj for lunch, and we're probably going to eat our pho, as per usual!  Good meal, and very hearty, especially when it's cool out (which it is today).  On top of that, there's also the Vietnamese Iced Coffee, which I'm a big fan of.  And that's saying something, cause I'm not a coffee drinker at all.  But that stuff is the top shit.

So with nothing better to do, I shall aim to make this a gargantuan blog post.  I owe it to you (and me) after not blogging yesterday.  In the annoyance of this morning, I thought the gym would be empty, and it was at the start.  So I was having a good time, then when I was about to get on the treadmill, some annoying lady comes in and then gets on it and starts walking slowly!!  Bahhhhh!  Super annoyed!  What's the point in getting up early if people get up later then come strolling in and use the equipment you're about to use, and then not even use it to the same capability of you!!  So damn annoying!  There's an older treadmill next to the one she was using, so I used that, but the gearing ratio on that is messed up, because I had it running on max speed (18 on the treadmill) and felt like I was moving in slow motion, despite running (apparently) 2.7km in 10 minutes.  My goal is still the 3km mark in 10 minutes.  That's my ultimate running goal.  Oh well, at least I got to run, and make her look incredibly slow.  There's another weights day tomorrow.  At least it will be Saturday and I can take my time.

Hahah, didn't blog as much as I was looking to, but that's because I was too busy on youtube all day, ditto with writing up things for tumblr!  Don't worry, this is my first love!  Good to catch up with Anj, as always.  Looking at buying a coat soon.  Goddamn, warm clothes are expensive!  Shouldn't have gotten sick and lost all that weight.  Everything is too big now.  Hahaha, not whingeing.  Just pointing out a fact of life for me now.

Anyway, I'll keep it here for now.

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Existence Is Futile

Post-modern existentialist borg?  Hahaha, I'd like to see that.  Maybe they had the right idea.

Isn't the human body such an amazing thing?  I mean it can take so much punishment, yet at the same time it's so fragile.  I mean childbirth is so traumatic, shouldn't infant mortality be much higher than it is, considering the stress that babies undergo?  Not just that, the stress on the mother, wow, goddamn.  Instant respect for any woman who has had to endure that.  How do bodies maintain themselves so well?  I mean if you take a dump, shouldn't that have just ruined your entire digestive system?  No, you are good to go for another one, whenever you need to.  Evolution, it's a funny thing!  Speaking of human bodies, mine is in a great deal of pain after this morning's gym session!  Ahh, but it's worth it.  Keeps everything in working order. 

Last night was incredibly productive in terms of chores and guitar.  Added more harmonies to the other's guitar parts and tabbed them in dropbox.  Also decided to delete a few of the older unfinished ideas, and incorporated them into new songs.  I ended up putting 3 ideas into this one song, and it's a complex, pop/acoustic masterpiece if I do say so myself.  Great chords, suspended 6th chords, yet great melody and it's just sheer brilliance.  Need to get the other to hear it at some point.

Another busy day at work, which isn't bad.  But I'm still unfulfilled.  This isn't what I want to do.  You know what I want to do.  It was at that point I should have known better.  Do you love how I keep changing the tense and point of narrative in my posts?  Hahaha, you never know quite what I'm on about!

Wow and it really was a busy day!  This is all I've got to show for it blogging wise?  Doesn't matter.  Tomorrow is a holiday and Friday shall be lazy.

Joaquin out.

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Igby Goes Down

So does Joaquin.  Having massive prostate pains this morning, as I've had a couple of times in the past.  So what's how it happens.  That's how I die - prostate cancer.  Damn, that's not a nice way to go down.  But I suppose it's gotta happen some time, right?  Thems the breaks.  I'm not even that old!  If it happens suddenly and I can't inform you all, just assume that if I go one entire year without blogging (from whatever the most recent post is), then I must be dead. 

As I was harping on about yesterday, it's so bad when you know exactly what you're doing at some point in the future.  Just say tonight at 9pm, I know I'll be at home and probably shaving.  How bad is that?  Where's the spontinaeity and surprise in life?  It's all so dull and pointless.  God help us if we ever became aware of our future.  This brings me on to an important point.  If you know the future, can you prevent it from occurring?  If I knew I was going to get hit by a bus tomorrow, would I just stop walking next to roads?  Would I just die in similar circumstances, or have I avoided everything?  And if I did, it would no longer be the future, would it?  My theory is that time is that in order for time to be infinite (which it is thought to be, depending on how you view how the universe will end), it can only be non-linear (i.e. it's a loop, as opposed to a beginning middle and end).  But in this loop are multiple loops  that contain the past.  We in the now live in the outer most ring, being the present, and we cannot go any further into the future.  If we developed a way to move into the other loops, we can only go to the past, and then diverge from the outer most loop by making different decisions.  This is why we have had no visitors from the future, it is up to this particular loop to go back.  All just my theorising, anyway!

The worst question you can ask of me is whether you think I am wasting my potential.  Because I know the answer is yes, and it infuriates me, and it saddens me all at the same time.  I'm wasting my life doing what I'm doing.  And it's unlikely to change.  The unsung tragedy of the everyman Joaquin.  It gets me down and really makes me feel bad.  Oh, if only to do something about it!

What I won't understand is people who don't realise that the world is changing, at a tipping point, if you will.  India and China have become global (and nuclear) superpowers by holding their cards close to their chest.  China now has the largest military force in the world, and is also the creditor of many nations in debt (including America).  What will be interesting is when they call in these debts.  In the old days, this would definitely be grounds for war.  Does America think it can win a war, hence they hope to just go further and further into debt?  America needs to focus more on its internal issues before turning to the rest of the world.  It's sort of a 21st century colonialism in its own way.  Makes me a bit sick.  But life changes, you know.  At the start of mankind, we were all Africans and then we slowly migrated and evolved and spread out across the world.  Well in the future we're all going to be asian (East and South) in appearance.  That's just it, they have the military power, they have the wealth (debt, and the rise of their middle class as an economic force), and they will have the sheer numbers.  Life won't be the same, it evolves and moves on.  The rest of society gets bred out.  It's the natural order of things and you can't fight it.  Ahhh, I wonder what the future will be like.  Hahaha, brings me back to the earlier topic in this post.  See how time goes full circle??  It's a crazy world out there!

Winter is starting to set in, even though it's really autumn, but damn, it is bitterly cold and it's going to be a pain to get through the next couple of months.  Already bringing out the hoodie to sleep in at night and be warm with.  I need more warm clothes.  Perish the thought if we were homeless or poor.  I honestly don't know how people survive on the streets. 

Was reading the riot act the other day because it's a site about the town I'm in.  Anyway, the editor/moderator of the site (which is kind of like news but in a forum sort of way) made a comment that he was afraid of the overcommercialisation of ANZAC Day celebrations, as well as concerns with people who tend to exploit that sort of mentality for jingoism and mistaken patriotism (read: stupidity).  I believe he used the term death cult, which attracted the ire of many of the readers/posters on the site.  I take umbridge with that, because you can't say a damn thing about the armed services in any country without being torn down, and that's not right.  The Australian Defence Force has committed a number of atrocities in wars, yet people brush this off as being casualties of war, or that they're under enormous stress and sometimes butchering an entire unarmed family is justified.  What utter bullshit.  But anyway, that's not the main point I was trying to make.  The editor of the site said that he supports the armed forces and a number of his family members serve, but that the Government and armed forces tend to use such events to glorify death and violence.  The veterans of major wars are typically the most vocal anti-war people you will ever meet, because they have been there and have seen the horror and futility of war first hand.  Yet now we are getting a generation of soldiers who don't have to fight 'regular' battles where you stand on one side of a beach and shoot at the other guys right in your face.  Now they just get to shoot a lot of unarmed civilians and they're loving it.  Then they come back home and flip out and kill their spouses and go on other rampages.  But that's just so typical of Australia.  So desperate to be relevant on the world stage that we must always remember a battle that we lost.  And not just lost, lost heavily.  All due to a navigational error and we got slaughtered.  What other country in the world romanticises a losing battle like that?  You better be damned happy we won the war in the end, because that would have looked incredibly sad.  But then again, as everyone knows, history is written by the victors.

In terms of guitaring, I've realised that a lot of the half finished ideas I put together and dropboxed actually work well on top of the other's half finished dropboxed ideas. How exciting!  That would be the ultimate, wouldn't it?  Finishing off the same idea independently of each other?  Still need to work on consolidation though.  Should also figure out what I need to do with recording, since my base soundcard is prettttyyyyyyy crap!

Work sucks (I know), hahaha!  The question I have to ask you is very important.  What do I do with the 2 and a half hours I have left of the day? 

Sometimes even the best laid plans...yeah, yeah.  I know.  I'm feeling so tired!  Just want to go home, eat and veg out on the couch.  No computer at all.  But then again, how am I supposed to post this?  Haha!

Ran into Rossco today.  Haha, I can tell he's uncomfortable around me, but that's his problem, not mine!  I hate the guy.  What a tosser.

Damn, even with a busy day, I've still managed to get some pretty damn good blogging in.  Hmmm, at some point I should start going back and tagging things, just to see whether readership goes up.  A bit dodgy, I know!  But dirty tactics are my specialty!

Wow, was just looking up salary rates at the ANU and goddamn!  They are paid better than my field of work.  I can't believe an academic institution, which goes on about low funding, pays so ridiculously high.  Well I'm not saying that they should pay them less.  Good pay = best people.  But maybe trim some of the fat and get rid of some staff! 

You know what I'd really like?  To be there at the end of all life.  I'd want to be there to witness it.  The bookends of society - have we achieved anything?  Maybe a bit like The Tree Of Life.  I shouldn't have seen that.  At least not with you.

What really irks me?  When bands that have no public profile are writing good songs.  Because it makes me wonder whether it is possible to survive in that industry.  Can there be any winners?

Anyhow, Joaquin out.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Twinkling In The Darkness

Is such a thing even possible?  That's asking a very post-modern question.  Haha, forgive me!

Anyway, it was a pretty uneventful weekend by any standards.  Got in some guitar and I'm very happy with how I'm playing.  2 new ideas are down in the dropbox folder.  With the public holiday coming up on Thursday, I'm aiming to just play the entire day, with only minimal computer gameage.  It takes away from guitaring.

Developing hip pain from sitting with my legs up at work.  Should probably sit normally to fix my posture, and alleviate the pain in my hips from sitting at weird angles.

Had a very busy morning, hence the lack of clear purpose in this post, because by now I would have come up with something decent to write about.  But here we are, and I've got nothing.  Absolutely nothing!

The monotony of life in general is getting to me.  It's like I go into autopilot sometimes and I even realise it, yet I'm still doing nothing about it.  What if I live the rest of my life like that?  Then I'll turn around and be 50 with nothing to show for it, and even more unhappy than I am now.  Is that what it is for other people?  They turn around one day and just go "where did my life go"?  Where's the joy in that?  And it's that which kill us in the end.

We get some interesting traffic here.  A lot from Russia - in fact, it's in the top 3 audiences for the site, and I can't figure it out for the life of me.  I wonder what's of interest here to the people of Russia.  But that's cool, we're glad to have you here and sharing in our lives.

Just a touch over 2 hours until I can finally go home.  It's only Monday!  Well at least it's a short week.  And at least I get to have lunch with Anj on Friday, which is always something to look forward to.

Does life itself as a force speak to me?  Then again, it's been so long since I've heard it.  What am I even talking about?  I don't know.  Just silliness for the point of silliness.

Alright, just an hour or so to go until I'm out of here!  Looking forward to mythbusters and some more guitaring. 

I don't think the people at work like me.  But that's ok, I don't like them either!  Hahaha!  Time to get out, but obviously stifled by the market at the moment.  We'll see what happens over time though.  Just have to get out of here.

What time is it?  Time to go.  Hmmm still not feeling well.  Hopefully that'll go away at some point. 

30 minutes?!  What is this bullshit?!  It should be 5pm already, I should already be on my way home. 

Yeah I've had enough, I'm out!

Joaquin out.

Friday, April 19, 2013

Pointed Sticks

Things are happening quick.

Should probably get on to some work.

It's been a busy day, so apologies for the lack of posting. 

Going to test drive some cars this weekend, so looking forward to wasting some time.  Shortish week next week, but the public holiday is in the middle of the week.  That's going to be a pain in the ass.

But the day is short and I've got things to do.

Take care.

Joaquin out.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Oh My Baby

Feeling pretty miserable this morning.  Just slept in like a crazy person because I just felt tired and sore.  Obviously didn't go to the gym.  But after doing that, I don't feel so energised, and on top of that I broke with routine!  Uh oh, not good.  That begs the question - what today?  What do I talk about?  I'm not in the mood.  It will also make going back tomorrow all the much harder.  Hopefully my knee and back will be able to recover with this non-activity. 

I know I've bleated by horn numerous times as to whether there's anything on the other side.  What if there's not?  Can anyone be sure?  Why are we not all just freaking out in the streets like there's no tomorrow?  Because there might not be.  And what if we're all just wasting our lives?  Can you even make the 'most' of your life?  It's all just so arbitrary.  Life is random.  And that doesn't seem right.  Did we invent God just to make sense out of the senseless?  A shared fallacy?

Got into some guitar last night and I'm in the process of consolidating a lot of songs that I had considered were separate, but I think sound a lot better when you combine them.  So just a matter of re-writing tabs and learning some more rhythms and getting my timing down.

Ah crap, had a good subject to blog about before - I even made a mental note (that sounds good, should blog about that), but of course I have now forgotten.

Oh man!  Still 2 hours until I can get out of here, that's not right!  It should be closer to an hour if anything.

Damn, that afternoon got real busy REAL quick!  Time has gone!

Let's call it a day!

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Blanket Love

And I can enjoy where I am, because there is warmth in the darkness.  But what worries me is that I cannot remember my dreams, how apt.  My back and right knee are extremely sore today.  All I want to do is sit here and do nothing.

In light of the horrible Boston bombing that I wrote about yesterday, I was reading that America has just gone absolutely nuts.  The Saudi national that was viewed as a person of interest was apparently tackled by a concerned citizen, even though the Saudi was injured.  This resulted in the Saudi being placed in police guard in the hospital and having his apartment searched.  Apparently he is cooperating with the authorities and it's been revealed that he's no longer a suspect.  Gee, what a relief!  Then I was reading that two arabic speakers (who weren't traveling together) were boarding a flight to Chicago, which apparently scared a bunch of marathon runners and in they re-screened all luggage and passengers, and when they couldn't find anything, they just kicked the two arabic speakers off the flight to appease the rest of the travelers.  What bullshit.  Great profiling by the scared shitless passengers and the gutless airline.  See, this is the problem - hatred and fear of what you don't understand.  This perpetuation in the media, and by the government (to present certain people as scapegoats), is what makes people angry - that's what gets you blown up.  Reactions like this dull my sympathy, which is horrible, considering an innocent child died, among others, as well as hundreds of people being maimed brutally.  Then of course there's the news of a bombing in Iraq which killed 50 people, and a massive earthquake in Iran, but nobody gives a shit, and the media will just give a throwaway line about it.  When you have so much footage of the bombing that can be replayed on tv in excruciating slow motion over and over again, and given that the victims look like us and speak our language, the media will convince you that the Boston tragedy outweighs everything else, and that's not right.  A death is a death and it's not right.

What I don't like is this idea that muslims who are silent about terrorist attacks are inherently supporting them.  What a load of crap.  I think by that measure, anyone who isn't out there marching the streets every goddamned day for anti-war demonstrations, then you inherently support the current unjust wars.

John Oliver of the Daily Show (some may recall him as the professor from Community who helped Jeff Winger enrol at Greendale College) recently remarked that he was shocked at how comfortable Australians were with their casual racism.  This of course caused an uproar here, but the fact is that it's true.  We are seeing a marked increase in people on public transport conducting racist abuse at people from ethnically diverse backgrounds.  From out of nowhere it has just exploded into a 'thing' where it's basically an epidemic now!  Going back to Oliver's comments, he mentioned that a lot of people told him that they didn't like those 'lebbos' (referring to lebanese people), and he thought it was comical how Australian racism is so specific.  It's not that they hate arabs, they hate a specific group of them!  It's nonsensical and hilarious if it didn't have real ramifications for people.  How misinformed - Oliver deserves no criticism for speaking the truth.

I've been reading (hahaha, a hell of a lot it seems) that job applicants who have foreign sounding names are likely to not get a callback, regardless of how well qualified they are.  They did a test where a foreign named person and a person with a 'regular' name submitted the same resume, and the person with the regular name always got the callback.  How discriminatory, why is this?  Are people scared of foreigners?  Can they not pronounce the names?  That's just utterly infuriating.  With hiring practices like that, you will never get the best person for a role.  But what do you expect?

Why the hell am I looking up specs for a computer that is just way too expensive and overpowered?!  I could afford it though...  Nah, not interested.  Nice to keep me occupied though.

Let's call it for one day.  Take care.

Joaquin out.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Why Wake Up?

When you can just stay in bed and be happy?  In warmth, and take life at my own pace.  To do what I want to do.  That would be the fantasy, but here I am, at work, being bored with nothing to do.  It's much better to be lost in dreams.  At least my back is on the way to being back to 100% again.

Just no time in the day to get anything done, and when you factor in that my work hours are so much better now compared to how they used to be, yet I'm still coming down to the same net result.  No time!  Don't get the things done that I want to.  It never was really my own time was it?  Living in borrowed time, as for now, as for always.

Edging closer to another milestone.  Has my life passed by so quickly?  The lines on my face grow.  This body is not the same, and I'm in the process of losing hope.  This is despair.  Youth left me.  Dreams die.  Why bother?  Why even bother with anything?  If it's not soon, it will never be.  Then what of my life?  Just another wasted one. 

And I can never see any happiness.  It's just not part of my thought processes.

Thinking, thinking, thinking.  I've got a bad feeling about this.  Is it even possible?  Who knows, right?

Been listening to a lot of new music lately and enjoying it immensely.  Always a good time.

Do I have anything to blog about today?  I can't think of anything after yesterday's ranty post.  Well at least we can return to disjointed and nonsensical for today.

Feeling awfully tired today.  How am I meant to get through until the end of the day?  It's only 11:20am!

These are questions you can ask me.

Crazy what is happening in Boston at the moment with the bombing at the marathon.  Was silly enough to read the comments on yahoo.com as well as ninemsn.com.au - where the absolute worst in humanity gets together to celebrate their own hatred and fear and conspiracy theories.  Both sites are really just the toilet of the internet.  Ninemsn has at least incorporated a facebook style system, so if you make a comment, people can pick up your name and your picture.  But yahoo is a bit more anonymous.  There's a lot of assumptions and hate-filled invective flying around on both sites and it's really just astonishing to see how quickly people fly off the handle - yet even more disturbing to see how many people celebrate their madness.  I hope the people making these comments are found out by their employers and families and castigated for it.  When the Oklahoma City Bombing occurred, the entire world was filled with the same sort of hatred and xenophobia, but when Timothy McVeigh was found to be the culprit, all of a sudden the world stopped caring and seemed so shocked.  Here was a white jock boy fighting for white supremacist causes, and conducting a bombing which resulted in mass-murder, yet was not labelled a terrorist.  That's right, you need to be muslim to be a terrorist.  What a load of shit.  Timothy McVeigh was a terrorist, simply put.  But he was never charged as such, and we only saw racial profiling and human rights abuses after the September 11 attacks.  What hypocrisy.  Let's go spread some democracy to some foreign countries by killing scores of innocent people while stealing their natural resources and profiting off the carnage.  The world is a sick place.  That's not justice, that's every bit as bad as terrorism. 

What I really hate is how Western media perceives other cultures.  Yes, we know the Iranian and North Korean governments are a bit whacky and war hungry.  But the people who actually live in those countries are nothing like the government.  They just want to go about and live their lives happily.  But the media would have you believe that they are also war hungry people who hate the West and no sympathy should be given to them if the military bombs them like cowards from the air, or from cruise missiles many kilometres away.  They're just regular people!  Here's the thing, the media makes it sound like injustice can only happen to Westerners.  If you're a part of a minority in the West, or you're from another country, then general principles of fairness and equality do not extend to you.  Bad things are just 'bad things' and a reality of being where you live.  But injustice apparently only happens to Westerners.  What a crazy world we live in.  Such entitlement.

So while looking up new phones, I looked at my iPhone 4 (8gig) and realised that I've only had it just over 2 years.  The last set of phones I had before that served me 4-5 years a piece!  Technology is just so replaceable, especially as innovation carries forward at an alarming rate.  But guess what, we are all replaceable too.  It is only our friends and family that regard us as being valuable.  But we are not really valuable to society.  In fact, the more our numbers grow, the more of a burden we become on everything around us.  Each generation gets replaced by the next one, and we are forever wiped out.  Resigned to the pages of history (or wikipedia), if we're lucky.  For the rest, there is a void that gets filled very quickly so that we are not missed at all after a while.

Oh my god, it's only Tuesday!!!  Still 3 more days of this crap to get through?  Even then, the weekend doesn't really bring that much respite because I'm always busy.  Busy doing crap I don't want to do.  Where is that point?  That point where I lost control of my life and just became this?  If you told me this a long time ago, I don't know what I would have done.  This shouldn't be happening.

Been reading about the National Broadband Network in Australia.  For those of you not in the know, Australia has one of the slowest internet speeds for a developed country.  The issue is the sheer size of Australia, as well as the fact that the majority of people here live on the Eastern seaboard.  Our internet network is based on old copper wiring which was only ever meant to be used for telephones, and certainly not the broadband traffic it's now clogged up with.  Ergo, we have very slow internet, and coverage is not so good.  The Government is throwing many billions of dollars into a National Broadband Network in order to upgrade infrastructure, and to speed up access quite significantly.   They say this should lead to more opportunities in terms of education and research and work, which I would definitely agree with.  But when you factor in that the majority of people who have internet use it for private use, then most of these people will use it for just regular youtubing and downloading music and other stuff (e.g. piracy)!  This doesn't really increase productivity, because let's just say if I wanted to get some songs, I'd have to wait a few minutes for one to complete.  By having a faster connection, all that means is that I can download a lot more things.  I'm not going to finish downloading my original song and then get on with the job.  Since the internet is so addictive, with things like blogs, and social media and interactive entertainment, I think it just means we will be plugging in more and enjoying more content.  Well that's just what I think anyway.

Ok, a tad over 2 hours to go until I can get out of here.  But what am I even looking forward to?  I don't even know.

Hmmm thought I had another good idea to blog about but it's left me.  I used to have a lot more stuff to write about, as you can probably tell when you look at posts from when I was in university, and probably a bit more intellectually inspired.  I can still post stuff like that, but probably not as often.  As you can tell, I'm a bit more confused and unsure these days compared to then.  But that's before I took the hit.  Maybe I'm just tired, maybe I'm just getting older.  Maybe I just need more sleep.  But the problem is that I can still function without it.  I don't want to be here.  I want to be out looking, searching.  The heart stings less then.

Oh my god!  Still 90 minutes to go?  That's not good!!  Time is running slower!  We must be nearing the black hole.  That from which we do not return. 

Wow, I really do have the ability to ramble on and on!  Should focus on making my writing short, sharp and precise.  But this is a blog.  I wonder if there's anyone out there who actually reads our posts chronologically and word for word?  Are people actually hanging out for this stuff?  I would be shocked, but it wouldn't be the first time.

There's definitely time for some hardcore guitaring tonight.  My own stuff!!  None of this cover bullshit. 

And the clouds have opened up and the sun shines through.  But I'm too preoccupied to even care.

In my research for phones (I'm most likely going to get as Samsung Galaxy S4) I've come across all this hilarious talk of ios vs android fanbois.  As we know, iOS is a pretty rigid system, and you have to work with what you have.  But Android is fully customisable through widgets and what not.  I think your choice says a lot about you.  iOS is a great, well designed system, and people like me are good at being able to get the most out of what they're given.  But Android can be customised to suit your needs, and there are no limits in terms of what you can do.  The customisation actually scares me a little.  There's so much you can do!  I just want to have a phone that works, with all my favourite apps up the front!

Ahhh, there we go, the clouds come rolling back in and the darkness takes over.  Will it rain?  I hope so.

Was that a sign I shouldn't have stuffed it up?

Hmm, I guess we will see.

Let's leave it there for today, folks.  Take care.

Joaquin out.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Isn't It Gruesome That We Celebrate Why

Created a really awesome song in my head when I dreamt last night.  Of course I forgot the meldoy and the lyrics as soon as I woke up.  Today's subject is all I can remember from it.  But in the dream I do recall that I was being chased by a really HUGE bee.  Like the size of my fist!  It was seriously intense.

I don't know a goddamn thing, do I?  Slow it down, check things out then go forward!

I'm not listening to a lot of English songs at the moment, but when I do, I'm listening to a healthy amount of Haim and Creed.  Strangely, a very good combination. 

In today's rant, I must say a big 'fuck you' to Apple and iTunes!  I recently procured my sister-in law's $50 iTunes voucher, and was glad to get a few songs that are very hard to find.  Ok, let's not rag on the fact that most songs on there are like $2.20AUD!  What the fuck?!  Why are people paying 99 cents in the US, especially when the Australian dollar is higher?  Don't talk about production and shipping etc. because we are dealing with virtual audio!  There's no physical copy of this shit!  I can go to JB hi-fi and pay an extra $2 and get my own PHYSICAL copy of the CD, and I can rip that shit to my computer in 320kpbs MP3 audio.  Not some silly M4a format.  Anyway, I asked my sister in law what songs she wanted, considering she gave me the voucher.  So I decided to select the option to gift her some stuff on the program, but bang - went from my credit card as opposed to the iTunes voucher that I had already redeemed.  What the hell?!  There was no warning whatsoever that it was coming out of my credit card, as opposed to the gift voucher.  Doesn't matter anyway, it was just one song, so I'll live.  Still, would have been nice to know that you can't gift a song from a gift voucher purchase on iTunes.  Would have made more sense to just buy the song for me then give it to her.  Nice workaround!

But I did buy some pretty nifty games.  Got Infinity Blade, which I've never played before and it was absolutely awesome.  Quick hack and slash action game with RPG elements.  Probably the best game I've played on iOS.  Love the art direction, music, gameplay, it's all fantastic.  Chugs a bit on the iPhone 4, but not enough to get in the way of enjoyin the fun.  Epic!  Loving it, I'll have to get Infinity Blade 2 after I've gone through all the endings and actually defeated the hidden bosses (I have died at the hands of the God King and beaten him, but I still need to join him).  Need to save up to buy the infinity blade in the game!

So the Government here is looking to implement some of the recommendations in the Gonski Report.  Not bad, but here's the problem - the Government is going to fund higher education by pulling funds from tertiary institutions.  Oh for the sake of fuck, why is this occurring?  Tertiary institutions are already running on little funding!  They're struggling, and this is going to impact students most of all, as the price of education will go up in order to stay competitive and viable.  It's a pretty bullshit thing to occur, considering most Australians who went to university in the 70's and part of the 80's were able to do so for free.  Then it's the same bastards (the ones who reaped the rewards of such a system) who started charging uni students on 'pseudo-loans' for their higher education contribution scheme.  Whoever implemented that should be killed and then left to rot outside so that their bones can be hanged.  We are supposed to rely on education and the innovation of our youth when they're stuck in debt and likely to give up on education?  Not going to happen!  The Labor Government needs to be voted out.  And when I say voted out, I mean utterly annihilated at the elections.  Let the Liberals take over and govern us into the ground with their backwards and outdated views.  Then, and only then may someone worthy rise up from the Labor ranks and take over again.  Pretty fucked up when you consider how much funding goes into private and religious schools in this country.  They already charge huge fees to the parents, so why can't government funding to these places be reduced?  It's a failing system.

It's this silly thing about the older generation making it harder for the youth to gain any benefit from life.  Most people my age can't afford a house because prices are so exorbitantly high.  This is due to the older generation buying loads of investment properties and then negatively gearing them for tax purposes.  Market demand pushes housing prices through the roof, and rental returns get stretched as a result.  End result - we are all renting, and paying too much for it, without the hope of ever being able to purchase a home.  I think that people should only be allowed to purchase homes that they live in.  Investment properties are a joke, and the concept just serves notions of greed.  Housing everyone is more important than someone's property portfolio.

Totally torqued my back the other day at the gym.  I can lift pretty substantial weights now, but the result is that my hands get massively chewed up by the equipment.  I've got callouses and blisters all of my hands, and it's not great to touch, but I can still play guitar (thankfully).  So I bought gloves to help me with that, but on Thursday I forgot to take my gloves to the gym, so at the risk of damaging my hands I decided to do some lighter weights.  Then on Saturday when I did another weights session, I took my gloves and lifted my regular weights, and damn!  Ouchhhh!  Totally wrenched the top bit of my neck (where it joins the rest of the spine), as well as my lower back, just above my hips.  My weekend was a bit painful, but it's starting to dissipate now.

Got in some guitar over the weekend, but not as much as I hoped.  So I'm going to try to spend this week working on original material and get some new ideas down.

As I'm sure I've ranted on about before, it really sucks that in this day and age, most people can't afford to buy cars or own homes without entering into a ridiculous, exploitative loans by banks.  It's not a nice system.  Things really need to change.

Looking to travel again at some point in the future.  But the question is where??

Only an hour and a bit until I'm out of here, and I can't wait!

Well this has been a pretty damn good blog, if I do say so myself!

Let's keep it there for now.

Joaquin out.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Setting Feelings To Default

Just so I don't need to feel anything.  Like machines, just unfeeling, autonomous beings without a care in the world.

Just a stupidly busy night last night and I'm very tired.  Well, at least it's Friday, right?  I just need to get through the day and relax this weekend.  Maybe I'll get a movie in.

But there'll definitely be guitar!  Some original stuff, thank you very much.

Did I have anything intellectual to blog about today?  Maybe, but I can't seem to recall.

Got a lot more things to add to the download list!

Will I ever watch them all?  Who knows?
Ok, just under an hour until I'm out of here.

What I don't like about social media, especially on twitter and tumblr is the concept of mutual following.  If you follow a shitload of people, your dashboard is going to be clogged with incredibly boring stuff, and you'll spend literally hours on things like twitter and tumblr just trying to catch up.  That's not how I want to spend my time!  So if I don't follow back, it's not because I dislike you, it's because I don't have the time!  I also don't feel the need to update such things with a million posts.

Ergh, I am feeling mega sick at the moment, and I need to get through these 45 minutes before I can get out of here.  Probably to be biblically sick at home.  Well at least I'll be at home?  Hahaha!

Do you ever get riddled with the feeling that you're so amazed to be alive?  It's kind of like the realisation of Wes Bentley's character in American Beauty when he sees the plastic bag in the wind.  I know it's become a cliche, and to a certain extent, even a meme now, but I had one of those feelings earlier.  Maybe things can be alright.

Who knows?  I guess all that's left is to wait and die and see, or not see.

Joaquin out.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

No Life In Dreams

Have a lot of travel to do next month.  I'm actually looking forward to it for a change.  It'll be good to get out of here, even if just for a little while.  It'll be sort of like going on holidays again, I guess, in some sort of bastardised way.

Got some good guitaring in last night, and even just sitting at the comp noodling around, I came up with some new chord combinations that I'm very happy with.

So, in line with blogging about more intellectual stuff, how about this time we tackle American politics?  America has been so caught up in the idea of fighting terrorism, that it has been completely blindsided by developments in North Korea, which is absolutely hilarious when you consider that they are close allies with South Korea, and have a significant military presence in the region.  How did this happen?  How does a military superpower like America suddenly get caught out by North Korean threats of military action?  It's because they were wilfully blind to the threat.  With all this trumped up 'war on terror' they have convinced the public that a bunch of poor, uneducated idiots in caves are a vital threat to their nation and way of life.  Yet, a rogue State like North Korea, which has nuclear capabilities, as well as one of the world's largest standing armed forces, has been allowed to develop nefarious technology unchecked for decades.  Granted, most of the saber rattling at the moment is probably all just talk with no intention of carrying through, but since the US has absolutely no idea what could happen, I am just utterly amazed.  That's the thing - the oil companies and military suppliers/contractors and all the other global multinationals that can profit from war and destruction have too much power in the political system.  If you can sway the politicians to do something in exchange for money, the public can easily be convinced that something is real when it is not, or that something is fake when it is very, very real.  The threat from terrorism is negligible.  The threat from a State backed war machine is infinitely more worrying.  But if you turn around and start chasing red herrings to placate an angry public (post 9-11), then you're bound to be caught out by the real deal sooner or later.

And so the King falls, and society crumbles, as did Rome. 

What really irks me about the media is that it seems to portray the concept that injustice and unfairness can only happen to Westerners.  Absolutely not true.  If you understood the things that go on in the third world, on a daily basis to the point that they are regarded as common place, then you would be utterly shocked.  But you don't care, because these people are not worth anything to you.  They are expendable because they are different from you.  Well let me tell you what, they're the same.  They have the same fears, hopes and dreams.  It is just because they are not in your face all the time that you find it so easily to discount them.  But as these populations increase faster than the developed world, you will see giant waves of immigration and what not as people fight for resources and land.  We're on the tipping point here, where the industrialised world will be overtaken by the third world (most likely from the inside), and there will be reparations for the exploitation of former colonial behaviour.  Just wait and see.  The world is going to become an interesting place over the next 50 years.  Well more so over the next 200-300 years, but I'm not going to be around for that, unfortunately.

Well that brings up another question: if medical science suddenly developed a pill that would greatly expand your life, would you take it?  Well I guess that depends, if you could live to 175, would that mean your body and mind would still degenerate?  Even if you stopped ageing for a certain point and then just dropped dead at 175, I don't think I would take it.  Humans are meant to die.  It's better for the environment, it's better for your fellow humans.  There is no hell but immortality.  Even Heaven sounds terrifying.  There is respite in nothingness.  Or even darkness with consciousness.  Nobody wants to see the light.

Wish the weekend would hurry up and get here so I can devote more time to guitar.  I should learn a bit more about chord theory (i.e. what the Roman numerals mean) in terms of tonics and formulae and what not.

Thinking about getting a new motorbike, but I'll probably just wait for a while.  Don't really have the time to ride anymore.

Looks like we also have to buy a new car because our Holden Viva is so crap.  Well I've blogged about it before, so I don't need to go on about the design and safety flaws of it. 

My phone contract has also lapsed, so I will probably get a new phone - the Samsung Galaxy S4 looks pretty good.  I'm a little sick of Apple and their crappery, and being stuck with the iTunes interface to operate my phone and music.  It will also be nice to operate on the 4G network.  Looks like I'll have to make a carrier switch though.

Ahh money money money.  Always about the money.  Nobody can really save for anything.

But then again, do you even need any of this crap we supposedly have to have?  I can get by with my iPhone until it dies.  Our car has been fixed, so we can drive that until it dies.

This has been another slack day at work.  There's no work to do.  Why am I even here?  Should I even be complaining about this??

Oh man, have just over 2 hours to go until I'm done with the day, and on top of that, I'll have my flu shot shortly.  This will inevitably lead to pain and discomfort tomorrow, but I won't be able to stay home.  Should make the next couple of days interesting, especially since it's Friday tomorrow.

What is the deal?  How do I deal? 

Ok, just had my flu shot, and my left arm is already going dead, not good.  At least the nurse was stupidly hot.  I saw her and just went :O  She was that attractive! 

Still no plan for games tonight, I'll save that for Friday.  Will get all up in some youtube though!  Got into a bit of it last night, but not as much as I wanted to.  Despite getting my butt into gear relatively early, I still went to bed at relatively the same time as the nights I gamed.  What the hell is up with that??  Too much time wasting in the evenings.  I'll rein it in tonight, and then on Friday I can let loose again.

Ok, just 45 minutes to go until I'm out of here, so I might as well just leave it there.

It's been a monster post, it's good to have a return to form!

Hope you've enjoyed it, too.

Take care of yourselves.

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

No People, Some People, All People

Just don't get it. 

Had a great morning.  Totally decimated some muscle bound 'roid freak on the treadmill.  He had no idea what he was up against when he was trying to match my speed, then he gave up, started huffing and puffing and then actually came off the treadmill.  Utterly hilarious.  I kept running even after my normal end time, just to send the message home that I was much fitter than he was.

Good guitaring last night, but have realised that my nails have started to grow again, so I'll cut them this weekend and then start with the original stuff I have in the other's and my dropbox.  Until then, I'll just keep practising my basic and advanced skills.

Also, note to self - no more games on weekday nights!  I just play too much.  That being said, I've developed alarming proficiency at Counter Strike Global Offensive and Chivalry Medieval Warfare.  To the point where I can consistently win matches of Arms Race and Free For All with full servers.  Not bad at all, considering I have not been proficient at any game since Tekken 3 back in high school.

Feeling pretty tired today, though I don't know why.  I slept earlier than usual yesterday, but I think I can sleep earlier tonight.  With no more games, I can watch youtube and stop after a few episodes of something good. 

Glad daylight savings is over.  I'm sure I've ranted on here before about how much I hate the concept of daylight savings, so I won't get into it again.  Needless to say, I love it when you turn the clock back an hour and get to sleep in!  I'm feeling much better already.  Just feels a bit more natural, you know?  It takes ages to get used to daylight savings - in fact it's probably 6 months!  Then you have to get used to having daylight savings end!  Probably a reason why people are generally unhappy!

Arghh, just spent ages writing a 7,000 word discussion paper for work!  I feel like I'm back at uni.  Not good.  Not good at all.  I've gotta get out of here.

Let's call it a day, I'm going to work on my latest tumblr update.

I've also decided to go back and tag all my previous posts - yes, all of them.  I wonder if blogger has a tag search function that searches across blogs, and not just within them, otherwise it will just be pointless.  Maybe I can raise our hit profile - that would be pretty epic!  I'll look into it and I'll get started on the tagging when I do the next blog intro-retrospective - perhaps next year.

I've really gotta start blogging about more intellectual stuff!  I should resume the blognotes, damn it!  They were a freaking good idea.

Only 2 hours to go, hurry up and get here, cob!

Joaquin out.

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

Speeding Through Time, Pulled Over For A Fine

Oh man!  Feeling pretty sick with indigestion at the moment.  I had a big lunch yesterday with Saru, and I'm just not used to eating so much in the day.  I have a light breakfast and lunch, and eat well for dinner.  But big lunches really throw off my digestive system.  Hopefully I'll feel better after tonight.

Saru is good, it's always nice to catch up with an old friend.  It was just like the good ol' days of university!  Before life just sort of went by the wayside.  But that's all pretty much my fault anyway.

A lot of people see me as easy going.  I don't know why that is.  I'd have to say that people who think that of me don't really know me that well.  That, or maybe I present a different side of myself to everyone else.  That side of which I'm not actually anything like.

I wanna go home!

Just a smidgeon over 2 hours until I can actually do that.  Counting it down anxiously, as I'm definitely feeling more ill after lunch. 

I don't know what I am, do you?  Do any of us? 

Now I'm stuck staring off into space.  When did I become so easily distracted?  This isn't me at all.
Hmmm, looks like I'm going to be busy for the rest of the week.  Good thing and a bad thing. 

Not so good when my brain is fried and I'm utterly tired, and not feeling well, ahhh!  Get me out of here.
Ok ok ok, only 14 minutes to go.  I feel like my guts are about to explode all over the place.  Not good!
Have a brilliant plan up my sleeve, but unknown if it will work.

What I don't like at the moment is people who you used to know, and had quite close relationships with don't accept friend requests on facebook!  Why?!  It makes no sense.  People are such a waste of time, I tell you!

Anyhow, Joaquin out.

Monday, April 08, 2013

Do Birds Envy Us?

Because we have arms, when they only have wings?  And to think, we envy them for their flight.  Are birds even capable of envy? 

Things keep getting put off, but I'll get back to it from this weekend onwards.

Didn't guitar as much as I wanted to over the weekend, but I did get a bit in, which is always good.  Really need to get back to making my own original content.  Have come up with an incredibly weird, but very melodic picking pattern using unusual chord voicings.  I'm quite fond of it, if only I could learn how to play the pattern properly!  But I'll get there.  The key to getting good at anything is practice and repetition.

What I did get into a hell of a lot of was Chivalry Medieval Warfare!  Damn that's a great game.  You might think that it's slow because it's first person sword based combat, yet it's incredibly intense.  Much more so than any FPS I've played (maybe with the exception of the Pripyat Ukraine mission in the original Modern Warfare game). 

Meeting up with Saru for lunch today, it's been years since I've seen her!  Almost 8 or so!  A very long time.  Should be good.  I don't remember what I referred to her in this blog as earlier, so I might need to edit this post later on.

I feel bad for Noel Gallagher.  I thought his solo album was some of his best work, but the public didn't seem to like it, and as a result, he no longer makes music.  How sad.

What of my own life?  What of it?  Am I any happier now?  There's not really any time for loneliness or anything like that.  But there is something bugging me at the back of my mind.  I'm sure we all know what it is. 

Sheeeit, it has been a crazy busy day for once.  Hence the lack of blogness here.

I'll make up for it later on.

Hopefully something more to blog about then.

Joaquin out!

Friday, April 05, 2013

Am I Having A Stroke?

Just had the weirdest feeling ever at the back of my head.

Well if it is, it's been good.

Joaquin out (maybe well and truly)!

The 5 Year Plan

Does anyone know what they're doing in 5 years?  As in, what is their 5 year plan?  I hate getting asked that question, because I really don't know what I want to be doing.  All I can tell you is that it's not this.  Work is killing my spirit.  Life is just killing my spirit.  I didn't choose this, why must I be here?  How does anyone know what the future has in store?  And 5 years is a long time when you think about it, but I'm sure it can just pass by in the blink of an eye when you compare it to your entire life.  How is anyone supposed to know?  You can't really control life, can you?  What good is your life- what value is it worth when all you have to look forward to is tasting the unopened bottle of orange juice tomorrow?  That's not enjoying the little things, that's being stuck in the mundane, with no hope of escape.

I'm looking forward to getting back to getting back into Chivalry Medieval Warfare.  Got the update last night and played it a bit - it seems very smooth.  Loving the fisticuffs map, too.  But 20 mins for that is pretty long.  As a result, didn't get to play as much guitar as I wanted, but that's ok.  I'll get into it this weekend.  That and some gameage.

What you're reading here is the blog of someone who doesn't matter.  Someone like you.  This life has no bearing on the world.  Not even in an imperceptible way.  What of it?  Is there no common thread pulling us all together?  Or maybe it's what's driving us apart? 

Excellent, only 1 hour to go before the week is done.  It would be easier to deal with if my chest would stop hurting.  I don't know why the pain has returned.  I thought I slept ok last night.

The fruit is bountiful, yet the water runs dry.

I just need to relax.  Relax and just let it all pass me by.  Relax until there is nothing left of me.  I'm here just fading away. 

Does any of this make sense?  To anyone?  Cause it doesn't even make sense to me, and I'm the one writing it, so I don't know how the hell anyone else is meant to make any sense out of these ramblings!

Only a little while longer, just have to hold on through all of it.

To crouch down and hide, and not be counted.

Joaquin out.

Thursday, April 04, 2013

Blistered Hands & Bruised Egos

Yet the drudgery of it all continues.  Sometimes I wish I was never alive.  Not dead - there's a clear difference.  A complete lack of existence compared to being alive, just to lose existence anyway.  Why?  Why did this body have to be mine?  Why did I have to inhabit this consciousness?  Couldn't I just not be?  And it's these things which keep me up at night.  It's all just a bit too much.  Why, why why?  Why me?  Why not someone else?  So that I wouldn't even know what I was missing.  There had better be something else in the end.

From here I can see the shadows move.  Life is moving on when I wish it did not.  I'm looking for convergence.  Not for my own life, but for everything - all lives.  Compress it.  Have I turned into Ultimecia from FF8?  Who knows.  Everything, all of it, at once. 

The lines on my face are showing.  The softness of youth fades away to the harshness of time and decay.
I don't get this new version of iOS - when I send an e-mail from the app, the plane whooshing noise (usually to signify that your mail has sent), is heard before anything is sent!  It makes the noise, then it makes the connection, then it sends.  What strangeness!  They have to patch that, cause it's really disturbing!
Oh man, I can't believe it's only Thursday!  It's a short week, too!  It already feels like Friday.  I don't know how I'm going to come in tomorrow.  And I really don't want to nap tonight.  Better rest up though, going to test drive some cars on Saturday.

Arghh, I'm trying to avoid falling asleep at my desk here.  An interesting factoid for you: we are receiving a lot of hits from our 2004 period lately.  I wonder what's spurred it on?  I've had a look through the posts coming up in the analysis screen, and it doesn't really relate to any topics that the public would be after, or maybe so you would think?  Probably just spam bots trawling for data.  But interesting, nonetheless.
It's getting cold again and I can't cope.  Ever since I got sick last year, I've found it really difficult to maintain body temperature.  I'm always feeling cold or hot.  Never comfortable.  Wonder what that is?

Time wasted can never be gained back.

Can I keep blogging, always?  To be honest, right now I don't see a time in the future where I'm ever not blogging.  In which case, let's all just continue on as business as usual.  But maybe one day it will just stop.  But until then, read on. 

2 hours to go until home time?  How am I supposed to do this?  I'm also ridiculously hungry!  How can I put up with this?  I could really do with some sleep. 

What I'll never understand are films related to people who have everything but are forced to realise that maybe they don't.  They are popular, well liked, have steady relationships, and are successful with their careers.  But through various trials and tribulations, they realise they aren't happy with such a supposedly shallow existence and seek to actively change it.  But that really annoys me - the things they have are what we are taught to strive for!  What more can they change about their lives in order to be happy?  Don't give me that shit, because films like It's A Wonderful Life make people realise they are lucky and should enjoy their own lives - which is a good lesson.  But other films which tell you to seek out more are just complete contrivances.  People who aren't happy with their lives can't relate to films like that, because they don't identify with characters who seemingly have everything they want, yet aren't happy.  Way to alienate the audience - films like Any Questions For Ben take note!

Just had a very good idea!

Anyway, I find it really odd that people find it difficult to get into the public service.  Firstly, why is it so hard?  I think it's a question of attrition, just like any other job hunting exercise.  You'll get something eventually, as long as your application is decent quality.  The other question is why would anyone want to work there?  It's not a good workplace, it's just full of terrible management, terrible practices, and awful bureaucracy.  Why would anyone sign up for that?  The opportunities in the private sector are so much better.  Well at least at high end places.  That's what you should aim for.

Net rolls over tonight and I have a gig up my sleeve!  Hell yes, can't wait to waste some bandwidth and continue with my youtube exploits.

So what's the deal with social media?  Well my deal at least?  I use facebook, twitter and tumblr, and I suppose this counts in a way.  This is by far my favourite medium, but followed quite closely by tumblr.  I get news, humour and personal interest stuff on there that I can just enjoy.  Twitter is mostly not funny and doesn't really cheer me up.  Facebook is boring, my friends don't seem to be doing anything interesting, or at least they don't put it up on there anymore.  So I should just use this and tumblr!

Anyhow, I'd better leave it here.

Joaquin out.

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

So Now We're Back To This?

Yes, indeed we are.  But that's cool, I'm happy to keep writing.  Ahh, but what is there today?  The weather has turned, and at the risk of pulling a game of thrones cliche - winter is coming.  Damn right, it's overcast, cold, windy and it blows.  Got some hardcore guitar playing in last night, which I'm very happy about.  It's amazing how much my mind can remember in terms of chords and progressions and melodies.  I'll make sure to get some more of that in tonight.  Happy with my playing, and thankful that last week's run of terrible playing is over.

Despite how well I play, despite how fast I can get or technical and whatever, I'll always tell you that the best piece of instrumental music is from kd Lang's constant craving.  It's not even a solo, it's an instrumental music in the break of the song.  It's not even a guitar, it's a mandolin.  It sounds amazing. 

One thing I'm not liking is cars with numerous models under the one name.  So for example, you can get Car A stock, luxury, or racing model under the same name.  Why?!  If you have different specs, why not give them different names to reflect the different pricing options, don't put them under the umbrella name!

Ok, just need to make 90 minutes before I can get out of here.  Sure I can do it!

It will be good to get out of here and just relax tonight.  Getting close to my download limit for the month.  Just need to put up with it for a day or two before it rolls over, thankfully.  Don't want to get shaped again!  Also been raging to get back into Chivalry Medieval Warfare.  It's been a while and I've got a hankering for some spankering!

Ok better keep it there for now.

Joaquin out.

Tuesday, April 02, 2013

This Post Had A Good Title

But now I can't remember what it was!  Haha, I remember I was at the gym and the title entered my head and I was like "oh that's a great idea for a blog title" but of course it's now like 4 hours later and I can't remember what it was.  Oh well, I'll just continue.  Good to be back at the gym, I'm fitter and stronger than I ever have been in my entire life.  I can run faster and harder, lift and pull much heavier weights than I used to be able to, and it's all great.  What's interesting, however, is that I haven't really gained that much net weight, despite having put on a lot more muscle mass.  Oh well, as long as I'm feeling better.

What I find really interesting is the ability of operating systems and programs to use up less space in subsequent builds.  What I'm referring to is the latest iOS (6.x) something for iPhone, because I remember I had only about 2 gig free at the start, before I upgraded.  Now I have 4.4 gig free, and I have put more music on there, so the new build is much more streamlined, yet offers a much better user end experience.  I wonder why the programming was never that good in the first place?  Ditto with my solid state hard drive on the computer, where I was down to 1.5 gig free (off a 64 gig HD), and I was paranoid that things were going to mess up, but luckily a recent update (I haven't deleted anything off that drive) has resulted in 14 gig free, with room to breathe!  I love it. 

Updated some more new music on my HD and iPhone, and I've been really getting into Haim.  For those not in the know, they are a great 4 piece (including 3 sisters) who specialise in gorgeous harmonies and simplified music that's still danceable and funky.  Check out their stuff on youtube, it's fantastic, quite reminiscent of 80's Fleetwood Mac (which in my opinion, was their best period).

It's mid-morning and I've already completed all my work.  What am I supposed to do now?  This isn't good! 

It's time to fuck with the status quo, methinks.

Alright, just need to make it an hour and a bit until I can get out of here. 

Joaquin out.

Monday, April 01, 2013

Dirty Writings

Just going to write even though I have no motivation or any content to blog about.

Been enjoying the new iOS, which has fixed up my 3G issues, which I guess related to the carrier settings, which has all now thankfully been fixed.

The new iTunes has caught a lot of flack for the difficulty in navigation, but I actually find it quite intuitive, and very easy to use.  But that's cause I didn't use the old iTunes that much, so I hadn't learned all the old things I needed to.  Overall, I'm left as a winner, not bad at all!


Ok, it's time for some guitar.

More posting tomorrow.