Sticklers For Success

Boy and I was just majorly distracted!  Started drafting this like 30 mins ago, and then got pulled into wikipedia and youtube nonsense straight after the subject!  Haha, internet specific ADHD, I guess.

You know what's strange?  Give this a try - just stare into a mirror.  Just stare.  Look at yourself, but don't focus on anything specific, keep your gaze general.  After some time, you'll realise that you're taking on the role of the 'objective observer' and that you start to look at yourself from the outside.  You start to see yourself as a stranger.  You don't know who you are anymore, and you become unrecognisable to yourself.  I wonder what that effect is called?

Ergh, my head is spinning, I've got a headache and I'm so damned tired, sleeping about 6 hours a night, probably even less.  But still functioning somehow.

Hahah, hilarious moment last night when I was trying to add some names to the JRL in my blognotes and realised that the name was already there!  Thinking 3 steps ahead here.  Just need to make the update and I'll be happy.

What's going on with my mind at the moment?  I'm losing my edge, but maybe I'm just tired.  Monday going on to Tuesday should be good for a larf, but we'll see.  Haven't had to stretch my stamina like that for a long time.

Haven't gamed in a while, and I don't miss it.  Looking forward to not having a computer or a functioning phone for a while.  We can give up all these things, they only make our fake, artificial lives easier.  And what's the point in that?

Got a crapload to do when I get home, and I'm wondering how that's even going to be possible, considering the state I'm in?  Again, I'm feeling like I'm on the verge of collapse.

Hmmm maybe I should just leave work early today and play some guitar.  That would be nice.  Didn't really get a chance to play last night.  But I'm looking forward to cutting loose at least a little bit tonight.  Gonna be a busy weekend.  One that isn't mine, yet again.

Is it just me, or is google chrome acting really shit lately?  It doesn't render a lot of pages (tumblr homepage for a start), or sometimes facebook and twitter, properly.  It also won't find a lot of other sites, saying there's a DNS issue.  But it works fine on other browsers, so why am I getting a DNS fail?  Didn't think Google would stuff it up so hardcore like that.  Shame really, cause it's a damn good and fast browser.

Anyone fancy a song and dance?  Must be baking outside.

Uhhh, everything's a failure.  It pisses me off writing like that because it just reminds me of stupid things.  Argh, I just wanna rage, but I think fatigue would take me down quicker than expending any energy on something.

Glad I'm not driving today, that's all I can say.  It wouldn't end well. 

Ahh the tragedy of human existence.  We don't choose to live, we don't choose to die (well most of the time), and existence just comes and goes and we are all unwitting passengers to time.

Let's roll.

Joaquin out.

More Than Friends, Less Than Lovers

Looks like everyone is keeping secrets from me.  Big ones, little ones.  Everyone is holding back from me.  How sneaky.  Everyone has their secrets, I suppose.  You're keeping secrets, there's only one I need to find.  Thank you Patch, and the rest of Motor Ace.  Oh Dave Ong, you were a great guitarist, I wonder what happened to you?

I was reading an article today that Bindi Irwin had her article regarding population control edited out by Hilary Clinton's e-journal.  Apparently it's a controversial theme?  Well I'll be damned, because I think it's a conversation we have to have.  Earth = finite resources.  People = infinite ability to reproduce.  The final result of that equation is not good.  People are bad for the planet, we're like a cancer on nature. 

Unfortunately, that is a necessity, as it makes our lives easier.  As things get tighter as more people are born, more wars will start over land and resources.  But I think at the heart of it lies something even more sinister - race and class.  Poorer people tend to have more children, and matters such as birth control are not discussed in places such as Africa, India or China.  This brings up allegories of the third world vs industrialised societies.  Should the only people who are allowed to procreate substantially be your typical white, educated masses?  Wow, let's not even go there.  I think we're at a crossroads now.  Humans can decide if they want to live sustainability and increase our length of time on this planet, or just let the status quo rule and doom our future?  We're all going to die.  Or maybe we should just totally overpopulate?  Here's my rule, the larger a population is, the more that is require for innovation and intelligence to shine through.  Ergo, only the greatest ideas get to flourish.  So if we have let's say 20 billion people in the world all of a sudden, maybe a few of them will be able to develop a clean burning and renewable energy source?  A cheap mode of interstellar transport?  Terraforming abilities?  Now that's something to get excited about.

Ahh, it had been a while since we've had some intellectual discussion on the blog, so it's a relief to get back on song with that.  Hopefully more while I still have the chance.

Cut my nails last night and the vibrato is just coming phenomenally to me right now, I'm loving every second of it.  Better make the most of the 4 more days I get of guitar.

The world is changing.  Every single day, it moves on in a seemingly unitelligible direction.  It concerns me, because at graduate camp for my first job, we engaged in a ridiculously complicated task to build towers, with rigid rules in place.  There's just so much going on, since you're working in teams, and a lot of other people are working in total isolation.  You think nothing is getting done, and then at the end of the exercise, somehow, everything is complete, and really well done.  I never quite got that experiment/game.  All it proved to me was that by slacking off and being lazy in a team, other people will pick up the slack and get the work done.  That's not a good lesson to learn, but it's a perfect metaphor for life.  You sit back and what not, and the world will go on without you, and all these amazing things will be accomplished without any assistance from you.  You want to be a part of it?  You have to take charge of your life and provide your own direction.  You cannot drift from thing to thing.  Seize your life.  Seize your opportunities.

That's all I can say for now.

Joaquin out.

Not Today

Not tomorrow.  Not ever.

I almost totally forgot to blog today, that would have royally sucked.  But I'm here, I'm blogging, damn it!  You can't stop me!

Just tired, so damn tired and losing the plot, losing patience.  Got an hour to get the best out of my hands here.  My wrists are killing me, and I don't know why.  I think I'll cut my nails tonight and enjoy some fantastic playing.  Everything is set and I'm going to be quite busy until I leave the country.

On that note, I better update the Joaquin Rate List (JRL) before I go, just in case something happens.  Don't want that hanging in the open!  Haha, don't say I don't care about our readers here!

Also got a brilliant idea to link back to the JRL, but you'll have to be incredibly clever to figure it out.  It'll be on tumblr, so just wait and see!  Might take a bloody long time though.

Just hearing news that I don't want to hear.  It's never a good thing.  Not when it reinforces stereotypes.

Darth Maul's speech(es) all seem directly relevant right now.

Quick, short, punchy paragraphs.

I will not forget.

That's it.

Joaquin out.

Bespoken To Victory

I'm starting to wonder whether any of my more disjointed posts make any sense to our readers.  Haha, I'm sure a lot of them look like the work of spambots!  Going back over old posts to newer ones, it really does look like spambots have taken over the writing of this blog, but I can assure you that it's 100% me, no matter how disturbing that may sound, haha!

I think it's good to go overseas and explore what's around you in the world.  The world is more than your backyard you know, and everyone needs to be aware of that fact.  When you see and hear of people dying and suffering everyday on the news, they're not just figments of people's imaginations, they are real.  They have feelings, they loved, just like you.  Just because they are somewhere else, it does not make them less valuable to society than you.

My nails are ridiculously huge right now, but I can still play decent guitar, which is a relief.  I'll cut them tomorrow or the day after.  Then my playing will be great!  Of course I'll be without a guitar for 2 weeks and that's going to blow.

It's never easy, is it?  Just going on with it.  Nothingness seems like a gift at this point.

There's so much to do, but I won't let the stress get to me.  I'm just going to lap it up and enjoy my time away.  After all, it's not here.  But I'm still on this planet.

In light of everything that's gone on, it's hard to get good information these days.  Even then, what would I do with it?  Things might be harder this time around.  Probably should have been a bit smarter, and questioned what I needed versus what I wanted.  But hey, I'm a greedy person, haha!

We may have issues with our comments system, I understand that.  The other put in a new system some time ago when we were getting spammed by hundreds of spam comments each week.  He put in the new system to have an authentication process, so that only people who wanted to comment could.  Of course the spam problem was fixed by blogger, but we still have the other's system in place, which isn't compatible with the notificaitons on the dashboard.  Therefore, I don't know if anyone has commented on any posts!  That is without going and reading through each post manually to see if there are comments.  Maybe we can fix that one day, we'll see.

That's it.

Joaquin out.

Gliss To High Note And Bend & Sustain

What a horrible weekend.  Did I come out on top?  I don't even recall.  Things just happen and I'm just here on the other side, struggling to survive.  Didn't really get to hit up guitar last night, but I still played.  Nothing new has come to mind yet.  But I am getting better at playing to our own stuff.  I should learn some more scales.  In fact, I should learn more theory, that would come in handy. 

Big cities are scary to me.  They're just so large and unwieldy.  You become nobody.  You're a nameless, faceless part of the mass.  You can never know anyone.  All those houses and apartments.  Who knows what the hell these people are getting up to.  It's a place full of secrets.  Secrets and strangers, at every corner.


Just utterly tired.  On the verge of collapse.  Didn't sleep properly again last night, but luckily still made it to the gym.  I don't know what's going on with me, but I'm getting these uber wicked pains in my chest (both sides), at various times of the day.  What the hell is going on?  It's all just contributing to the general malaise I'm feeling right now.  I wonder what it could be.  I think I just generally not feeling well.

11am!  Goddamn, it's only 11am!  I don't want to suffer through this day anymore.  I just want to go home and sleep, can I be allowed to do that?  Maybe I should just leave.  That would be fantastic.  My mouth is bleeding again, for no reason.  I think I may need to have my wisdom teeth pulled out.  Maybe later on.  Everything is just going wrong with me.

Ok, almost 12 now, the day is slow but as long as I keep myself occupied, I'll be alright.

It's weird how life is coming around full circle now.  2000 is now 2013, what the fuck?  How is that right? 

And now 2010-2012 has kicked me in the ass and it's all gone. 

Ok, only a little while to go, less than an hour.  Then it's just 4 more days of work and I can relax and be happy.  Well happiness is subjective, but at least I won't have to be at work and miserable.

If you want alone time, don't have kids!  It's that simple, I'm providing that as free parenting advice.

Ok, I'm done for the day.

Joaquin out.

What Can You Do?

When you find out everything could have been ok?

Everything would have been as it was supposed to be.

If I had known the truth, life would have been so different.

I wonder what it would have been like.

What can you do?

Just sit and take it I suppose.

Oh well.

Need time to think.

Joaquin out.

Riding Horses By Dusk

The horizon can be seen on 3 plains.

It's been a busy week, as you can probably tell from the lack of posts that have gone on here.  But I've paid my dues and right now I've got nothing on.  Therefore, I can blog like a mofo!

So here goes!  Soooo...maybe nothing to blog about, hahaha!  Oh well.  In some freaky remonstrance, I put on 3 kilograms last week, which I have managed to lose entirely this week.  Don't ask me how that happened.  Probably had something to do with the McDonalds I indulged in on Friday, followed up by a crapload of nuggets later on that evening.

Just need to run harder.  Running from stuff, running into stuff.  It's all the same really.

The Boys of Summer by Don Henley is a totally underrated song.  Love the guitar in it.  Love his voice.  The theme of the music and the general tone is brilliant.  It's incredibly emotional.  I think I can finally understand what it's about.  It strikes deep, you know?

My brain is starting to get fried, but I only need to make it an hour and a bit and I'm all good to go.  Not good that I need to drive a long distance today. 

Everything is still.

That's it for now.

Joaquin out.

Status Of The Quorum

Still extremely busy with work, so no substantive posts today. I'm also blogging from the bus so that's pretty dope. Got a mofo sitting next to me who is reading this, so gotta be careful with what I say. Hahah! If only he was already offended!

Anyway, after tomorrow only one more week of work left until a 5 week odyssey of the void. Really! With the exception of a 12 day overseas trip, I have nothing else planned. If only we could all be so lucky.

Am I the only person who disliked Tom Andersons response to the troll comment on twitter re: MySpace? I really think I'm the only one. Guess I'm still fighting the class war for my own interests.

Take me to the beach. I can hear it. Calling me.

Goddamn the early bus is weird. This is why I shouldn't fuck with my routine. It's packed and I'm sitting sideways and it's all just very strange.

I'd like to go to more places I haven't been. I really hope everyone is like that. Or else what's the point in being human? Of living? Of this existence?

Ok that's it for now folks.

Joaquin out.

Delightful Musings

Does my mind always go there in the first instance?  I wonder why it does?  What's wrong with me?  Then again, I can pinpoint when things started to change.  Some people are just weak.

Think on tonight's agenda is some gaming and some guitar.  I don't know what's going on, but I'm really REALLY fucking enjoying playing guitar at the moment.  It's incredibly addictive, my ear has gotten better, as have my general playing skills.  Maybe I'll FINALLY be close to attaining my university day playing skills.  That would be a wonder.  I wrote the most catchy riff I've ever written in my life last night.  Luckily I tabbed it so I won't forget it, but I didn't do anything in terms of recording it, so hopefully I have the rhythm down pat.  I don't know how real musicians get that sort of information dude on sheet music.  What about complicated strums?  Can you really account for that?

I like listening to stuff with weird time signatures in it, but I'll be damned if I can compose something like that.  Yes, I can play in it when improvising, because my internal metronome isn't bad on time signatures. 

Won't get to blog much from the end of next week I assume, as I will be heading overseas for a little while. 

Also have research to do in relation to that!  Kind of over work, but you get that.

Well maybe I do have a few tricks left up my sleeve.

Done and done.

Joaquin out.

Quicken The Dead

Haha nice wordplay there. 

Maggots everywhere.  Just dirty maggots, infesting everything.  Am I running from my past?

Sorry for the lack of posts lately, things have been incredibly busy. 

More to come when I get the chance.

So is that what singular focus looks like?  I guess I should pay attention.

Damn, I had another point, but I cannot really remember.

Today has been a very shitty day!  Quite literally, hahhaa.  Make of that what you will.

Oh well.  Hopefully more to blog about when I get the time.  Time is pressing.

Joaquin out.

You Were Saying?

This morning I saw some young mothers asleep on the bus with their children.  I was jealous, cause right now I'm on the verge of complete collapse.  Mental, physical, spiritual collapse.  It's all heading to a strange place. 

Barely surviving on little sleep.  It just feels like each day is getting way too short, and there's no time to get anything I want done.  But hey, I guess that's life, right?  You never get what you want.

Just heading to some disturbing realisations about my life here.  I document this here just so I can look back in hindsight and see if I was right.

Felt like writing a lot today, but as the fatigue takes over, I find I don't really have a lot to say. 

Sleep.  Sleeeeeep.  Zzzzzzzzzzzz.

Only got a tiny bit of guitar playing done last night.  But even after an extended period away from our original stuff, I was able to remember chords and rhythms and progressions, so was suitably happy.

Near heart attack this morning.  It looked like Gmail had been blocked at work and I was scared that I wouldn't be able to send myself my blognotes.  But thankfully, it's up and running.

One thing I'm definitely not a fan of is the way google compiles all of this information on people across its products.  You can't use youtube properly unless you sign in with a google account.  People have gmail because it's a better system than hotmail.  We have been on blogger since before google bought it over, but now people require gmail accounts to access. 

Just shut up and play the riff, dude.

Ah fuck, Rossco is talking to me.  Not cool man.  You know what you did.  Don't pretend everything is ok.

Wow, I'm doing the same thing, aren't I?

Let's see if I can blog on the weekend.

Goddamn, it's been a busy afternoon.

Fuck, this is an unfinished post, I'm sorry.  I couldn't really give a shit right now.

Joaquin out.

Title? What Title?

Ok finally back at the gym and I'm struggling.  It's not painful, it was just difficult.  It's what I get, I suppose!  Found out I put on like 3 kg in the space of one week.  How is that even possible??!  Goddamn!  Haha, then again, I was pigging out like a mofo, so you reap what you sow, I guess.

What do I decree today?  That I just want to go home and sleep.

Had an absolutely epic session on guitar last night, it was brilliant.  Playing along to my own stuff, as well as the other's song called "evening for me".  And I just blitzed some awesome solos to his brilliant rhythm track.  Just jammed for like 30 mins on that one track, it was awesome!  I loved it.

God bless the pirate bay!  I've actually made quite some serious headway on my download list.  A sizeable chunk has definitely been carved out in the past 2 months.  However, in terms of media that I've actually consumed, then I'd have to keep quiet, because I hardly ever watch or listen to anything!  I did manage to download a whole heap of new albums from artists that I admire.  If the stuff is good, I'll go out and buy the real deal.  I like having physical copies of stuff.  I don't know how e-book readers can survive and thrive in such a climate.  I'll get around to it, maybe when I'm on break.  I'm looking forward to it, and already starting to zone out in holiday mode!

Women are vain.  That's a fact.  Sorry to say it, cause it's a stereotype, and I hate it when people do that.  But if you call a woman ugly, she will regard it as the greatest insult you can fathom.  And I can't understand why.  There's a million things that would be much worse, but saying a woman is physically unattractive will usually get the scorn heaped on you.  Why do women place so much regard in looks?  That if you're not physically attractive, you have failed as a woman?  It's a weird thing.

It's funny how people let work affect them.  People who have had bad days at work tend to carry that stress with them into their home lives, and I have to admit that I was like that too.  But I've left all that behind. 

Onwards and upwards.

Joaquin out.

The Red Goblin

Will haunt me from this point out.  Listening to really odd and obscure music at the moment.  Didn't really get a chance to bash around the keyboard last night, but I did get up in some good guitar and I'm happy with how I played.  More of that to come tonight.  That and some research.

Well wow!  This afternoon flew by, and it was far too busy.

Oh well.  More important blogging to come tomorrow (hopefully).

Joaquin out.

Dreaming Of Frozen Synapse

Just a damn strange start to the day.  It sort of feels like this week is the first week back at work, and last week didn't really happen.  Was dreaming that I was playing (but yet somehow also living) in a Grand Theft Auto San Andreas crossover with Frozen Synapse.  So overhead third person shennanigans, but you had to select things to do from a menu!  Weird.  Then it eventually turned into a GTA game but first person.  Strange times indeed.

Just spending more time being bored and boring.

What I will never understand for the life of me is the idea that minorities would vote republican in American elections.  The Republican party used to be the bastion of freedom, much like the Liberal party here in Australia, but that was all a hell of a long time ago.  Now it seems that in both situations, they have become the bastion of unfairness, for progressing and protecting the interests of rich white old men.  These people hate minorities unless they are exploiting them.  Yet minorities continue to vote for conservatives in droves, and it's something I don't really understand.  They hate you, they want you gone, unless you are working for them for less than minimum wage, and you remain uneducated.  The minority experience does not align with conservative government.  At least not if you want to better yourselves. 

Ahhh republican voter demographics, you are forever shrinking.  Soon you shall be the minority, and we will see how things end up.

Oh god, I have work to do!  How am I going to cope?  Haha, after so long in being in exile?  Who knows.  This should be good for a trip, let's see how it goes.

Had a bit of fun on the keyboard last night.  Got my Vanessa Carlton's A Thousand Miles down pat.  Just learned Insomnia by Faithless.  But I'd like to get Sara Bareille's Love Song down, and maybe the whole intro of Bruce Hornsby's The Way It Is.

The shorts are getting shorter man!  It's the boguepocalypse.

I'm feeling the ravages of old age here.  My body is hurting and I haven't even been to the gym.  Maybe that's the shot in the arm that I need?  Just recommence going to the gym, and yes, although there is pain, there's less of it.

Things are ominous outside.  Could be the apocalypse and we wouldn't even know it until it was too late.  But I guess we all deserved it.  We deserve it.  It's what we get.

Are there other ways?  Perhaps, but I better think about it.

No gameage tonight, I want to focus on guitaring and playing well, especially after the horrendous abilities of the past few days. 

Good luck!

Joaquin out.

Confused Mornings

And other periods of not knowing what exactly is going on.

Had a shocker playing guitar last night where basically everything I played sounded like shite.  It wasn't a matter of tuning, it was improvising, it all just sounded like a dog's breakfast.  Maybe I've just out of practice - or at least I hope!  Hope I'm not losing my touch.

A boring weekend really, didn't really get a lot done.  But hey, at least I blogged through blogger+ so you should all be happy.  Definitely worth the money I spent on it.

Got a keyboard (haha, not a broken one though), and am looking forward to learning how to play it at some point.  If I could play piano as well as I can play guitar, that would be a very good life indeed.

Things are going to be interesting, that's for sure.  Goddamn, I'm so hungry!  Mondays are such a killer, especially after crazy weekends. 

Probably shoulda spent a bit more time typing this up instead of reading crap!

Joaquin out.

The Internal Metronome

It's important for rhythm and tempo, especially if you want to sing too. But I lack it. All sense of timing comes directly from the hands. I don't know why I lack it, or maybe it's something I need to practice in terms of keeping a steady beat, because I like to play a little bit behind, sometimes a little bit ahead of the beat. It's very fluid, sorta bluesy, but I think I actually fit more into jazz than blues or rock and roll, except for when I play solos.

Rigidity, form and structure. What are those things? Do they challenge us as human beings? Are we naturally liberal, and do these things help us hold on to the bus because we are so scared of the future? I always think about how people live now compared to how we lived long ago and just laugh and wonder about how people could be so stupid. If those people had remained conservatives their whole lives, we would still be living the same way, and life would not be as it is now. I just shudder to think about how life will be in the future, in terms of how they will look back on us and laugh. I mean where could we be so wrong? Obviously the racism and the sexism. But there's also the lack of action on gay marriage, immigrant rights and what not. Who knows, there could be no more States, maybe even no more countries. Just one people, one currency. The idea of the standard nuclear family as we know it will make no sense, and for reasons of financial and personal security, polygamy will probably be allowed.

Has it all been lies?

Food for thought.

Joaquin out.

She Said She's Gonna

I'm going to have to go on a White Whine-esque rant here.  For those of you who aren't in the know, you should google White Whine and look up the first hit that you get.  Endless fun to be had there.  But I need to rant about the tax system in Australia.  I'm nowhere near the top tax bracket, but I get slammed in terms of additional tax on investment income.  I don't think it should be taxed at the same extent as other income, because it stifles growth, and it's a damn inconvenience when you factor in stupid things like the Pay as You Go (PAYG) system, it leads to a very silly, convoluted system.  So essentially on my savings, I have to conduct additional paperwork and pay money in quarterly instalments, just so they can reconcile it with tax I have to pay (or have refunded to me) at tax time.  Jesus!  Why not just let me have my money and then if I owe you, I'll pay it when it's due.  Not get into this whole song and dance about quarterly payments and additional paperwork that's not directly related to my tax return.  I'll have the money for it, that's no problem, but shouldn't it be my right to enjoy the cash I have derived?  Stupid system.

Didn't get a whole lot done guitar wise last night, but I managed to write down the stuff I have been meaning to tab, so that's good.  I'm always paranoid that I'll forget brilliant rhythms or riffs.  Well it does happen quite often, so I make it a point to tab them if required.  But tonight I'll get down to some actual playing of my own stuff.

Heading interstate again this weekend.  I'll see if I can hit up some blogging from my phone while I'm gone, but we'll see.  I'll have nothing better to do, since I don't need to drive.

What I'm finding hard to discern is that it's only 11:20am!  Holy crap!  How am I supposed to get through the rest of the day in this state?  I'm not as tired as I was yesterday, but still not 100%.  I still have so long to go before the day is over!  And on top of that, it's going to be a long day.

Yesterday it was boiling in the office, and today it is freezing.  Even though the temperature is the same.  Looks like people have located the air conditioner!  Hahaha, gosh I'm so bored!

Oh crap!!  I was supposed to walk down to the fountain today to watch it turn on and I missed out.  Damn it, so forgetful of me.  It's nice doing things for myself, but not when you totally neglect them.

What are you to do with life?  Hope for the best and expect the worst, I guess.

Well at least the evening was productive.  It's amazing how much you can get done without tv or a computer.  Ironic.  Haha!

Joaquin out.

Precious Things/Hell, I Am Here

What madness is this?  Oh that's right, I am here at work.  I did not sleep a wink last night and I am absolutely zombified right now.  This isn't good, especially considering how much work I need to get done today.  Not to mention that it took me like 20 minutes to send a basic e-mail this morning.  I'm losing the plot, that's for sure.

New Year's Gobby?  Haha, don't mind if I do!  Interesting, it's all very funny, yet all so disconcerting.
How bittersweet this morning.  If only I knew more.  But it's all a big risk.  I guess we can only wait and see what happens.

I think I'll get around to the Joaquin Rate List (JRL) shortly.  Only 3 or so updates to put in, but still important, nonetheless.

Should be getting 5 weeks off shortly.  Just need to make it 3 more weeks after this week and I'll be sitting pretty.  I've got a total of 7 weeks off, so having 2 weeks up the sleeve is pretty handy. 
Everything is killing my brain.  I'm so damn tired.  And just to make it that little bit harder, it's also stupidly hot.  I'm cooking in my clothes in an apparently air conditioned office!  Stupid! 

Erghhh, none of this is making much sense, is it?  Feeling like I could just nap at my desk, right on my keyboard.

Have just been going back to guitar and have been hitting random next track on winamp and playing guitar along with whatever I could hear, as well as tracking down tabs that I lost when my old computer hit the fritz.  Missing my guitar pro greatness, since it was such a great and handy program to compose with.  Also good for learning about musical timing and what not.  It's been great, but from tonight I'm resolving to get on with my own stuff, as well as the other's and write some more ideas down.  Got a really great chord sequence down that's very wicked.

On top of that, I'm just generally not feeling well.  Not sure that's going to pass as work drags on, and I get back into the habit of it all.

Habits are things to be avoided, that's for sure.  Hmmmm.  This could be an interesting time now that I think about it.

Looking at the new year tick over, and I've realised that we've had this blog going since 2004.  2004-2013, holy crap, that's 9 years.  That's absolutely insane.  I wonder how many other personal blogs (about nothing in particular, e.g. a blog about nothing, with no theme), have lasted this long?  Let's see how long we can keep this up.  On that note, I should also make sure I get stuck into finishing the blog intro/retrospective.

I think there's something wrong the way the riot act is run as a news site.  It seems to function more as a forum that espouses the views of what the editors (John Griffiths and co.) consider to be facts.  I'm a little concerned that they engage in active censorship, where they delete any criticism or contrary views to their own.  They say this is remedied by joining up and expressing your own views, but this is just thinly veiled corporate consumerism.  I understand that dollars need to be made, but this isn't really a true forum.  The only way to remedy it would be to start a mirror site with everything free.  All the same information and what not and watch their readership dwindle.  Of course you would need to have a free and open discussion forum, but that's a very dangerous thing in this day and age, isn't it?  Extremely addictive though, I'll admit.

Anyway, that's it for today.

Goddamn, I should really drink more water.  Anyway, on to guitar.

Joaquin out.

Happy New Whatever

Oh nooooo!  Forgot to get in one more post before 2013 hit.

Damn it!  Woulda been nice to have hit 290 posts in the year for 2012.  Nice round figure that is.

But regardless, here I am.  Blogging at 1:30am for all you lovers out there in cyberland.

I've got some guitar to play, then I'm going to bed.

Talk to you hipsters later on.  Oh crap, also forgot to update the Joaquin Rate List (JRL), but I'll get to that a little bit later in the week, when I have the time.  Haha, funnily enough, that'll be when I'm at work!  Gold.

Ok, that's it for now.

Happy new whatever.

Joaquin out.