Looking For Nothing

But it seemed to find me anyway.  I have a weird feeling that I've used this blog title before.  There's now so many of them spread over so long that I can no longer keep track over all of them.  I had a good title in mind this morning, but I've forgotten it.  I also had some good blog ideas last night, but of course that's also now loste in the ether.  Do I have anything of value to add today, considering how good the posts have been this week?  I'm not too sure, but let's see where I end up with this steam of consciousness crap that I always do.  Time seemed to get the better of me last night.  As a result, I missed out on 5 gigs worth of downloads!  I can't believe it, I think good internet plans should carry over unused data allowances to the next month.  But that's ok.  It's not really anything major.  But goddamn I am way too tired for any of this.  I need 2 days worth of sleep.  Right now.  Is the stress of it all getting to me?  Maybe, but what stress?  Where is this all coming from?  The void, the nothingness.

The sentinels in their towers are watching me.  It would be the ultimate insult and the final irony if what I imagined were true.  But the truth is often stranger than fiction.  What could I do?  What weird emotional experiences, it's all for nought anyway.  But I will do my best to do what I have to.

The world is a crazy place.  There's one thing that's true whether you're in the west or in the east - housing prices close to the city centre are always ridiculously expensive.  Way too expensive compared to what else is on offer.  But due to the legacy of older people having cheaper housing and no university debt and comparatively higher wages due to the effect of inflation, they own all the property, and pass it down to their children.  Young people cannot afford within 50kms of their city centre, and the suburbs have turned into the new slums.  Why is that the case?  It's like we're essentially heading to a point that the city centre will just end up being a massive skyscraper with only the very rich living in it.  Or we'll have a battle angel alita scenario with the rich living above us and using us as a dump.

Is there anything constant in the universe?  I don't believe so.  This, all of this came from nothing.  There was change, everything is variable.  We are too.  Okay, I'm done, I think.  That's it, no new thoughts for today, or at least for now.  I'm just going to have to sit and stew on this for a while. 

The stock market is a weird place.  How come when a company announces massive losses and big financial problems, the stock price rises significantly?  Then when companies announce big profits and that business is going well, the stock just dives?  It's nonsensical and contrarian. 

I got the shakes here.  No more I.  I does not exist.  Did it ever?  What is going on with all these people?  Just went through the news and I'm still not inspired to write about anything.  Not inspired to do anything. 

I'll call it a day.

Joaquin out.