With only a little bit of time to go before I face the firing squad, I am left wondering whether I will ever be able to be this crazy again. My life has changed. And sometimes I don't know if I realise that. Hmmmm, Ahab and that white whale. It's not the same, is it? Maybe it's easier than I think. But it is always nice to hear what I'm like, even if I'm a disappointment. Four days till I'm out of here. I'm just going to use the time to relax and just shut off for a while. Or catch up on all the electronics related things I've always wanted to. That'll be handy. Then I don't need to worry about it here. Maybe I'm concerned about wanting to settle for a bit of vanilla blandness.
I really need to catch up on tumblr. I'm a bit behind and I need to respond to people's messages. I'm not really being challenged here. My ability to think has just gone down to mush. Oh great, and to top things off, it's raining!! How am I supposed to get home?? It doesn't matter, I'll figure it out. Even if it is freezing.
Ahhh the things I used to think when I was a kid. What ever happened to them? Real life came and destroyed me I guess. Well at least there's only an hour and a bit to go until I'm out of here. Do things make sense in the abstract, when all the rules are thrown out the window?
Man right now, at 4pm, I can tell you that all I want to do is go home and eat and stay warm. I've got a headache and I'm just not feeling it today.
Mucked around on guitar last night for not very long. It was troubling to me that it felt entirely foreign. Like I didn't know what was going on, or how to do things. Hopefully that'll go away as I get back into a decent routine. Ok, 45 minutes to go. I can do this. My sickness is getting a bit worse at this time of day, which isn't good.
I'd better leave it here for today, I can't do this.
Joaquin out.
