When The Circle Comes Around...

Put yourself in my place was truly Kylie Minogue's magnum opus. Probably one of the best chorus melodies I've heard in my life. I want to cover it.

Today saw a blast from the past, T-Man (as the other will know), called me up out of nowhere and we got chatting! He has not been up to much. Neither had I - then I got thinking that this is the story of my life. Many goings on from day to day, none worth mentioning. I want to do something! I said we should catch up ASAP, before the new year hits, and he was down with that. Too bad the other is not here to enjoy the catch up too.

34-1. Those are my current love odds. 34 fails (that I can remember)! Haha that's HUGE when you think about it. But it could be more, due to the failure of my memory. But regardless, it doesn't matter how big the number on the left is, as long as the 1 is there, that's all that matters.

I really must get out of here, before I do something crazy. I just need to bide my time till I can see what's out there and go for it.

So I went over my download limit the other day and I got shaped. I have not been shaped for years! It really sucked, it felt like dial up days. I really need to fix up my internet situation some time soon! At least it was for only 2 days, so I didn't have to suffer too badly.

I have neglected my movies and tv shows, but I came across some older song ideas last night, and I am aiming to consolidate some of the ideas into a whole song, cause they fit, and there's good connection between the ideas. What more do you need? I need to complete these things damn it!

As mentioned, the Joaquin Rate List (JRL), will be updated soon. Only a few to put in this time around, but as the list is ridiculously huge, it's still a feat in itself!

I keep having these dreams that I used to have as a kid. I of course had forgotten them since I was a kid, but they were memorable - at that time. Now they are disturbing. I still haven't been able to make sense of them now. But there is a sense of peace underneath it all.

That's it for today folks. Have a nice day. Joaquin out!

May I Remind You Of Who You Are?

I had a really odd experience last night. I was looking in the mirror (which is odd in itself, I only look in the mirror if I'm going out with female company, just to make sure there's nothing objectionable on my face or in my teeth) - and I would be the last person to be considered vain. Anyway, the more I looked, the less familiar my face became. This went on and on, till I did not recognise my face, and I did not know who I was. It was a stranger staring back at me, and had all my memories. I did not belong here. This was truly an identity crisis.

As guessed, I have a bit of Wii arm today - from my boxing exploits yesterday, so lifting weights was a slow and painfull process. Have to get in some movies and guitar today, I had some brilliant rhythms going yesterday!! Need to get some of these ideas down on paper and record them for the other.

I have a cut on my ankle!! How did that happen?! Ah, the mysteries of life! It was pretty decent, so I just have to put something on it to make sure it doesn't get infected...

In my opinion, the popularity of microshorts is directly correlated to the downfall of society. Listen to my point before you write it off! Previously, microshorts were very rare, you would only see a select few girls wearing them out. But, as society has declined - wars, global financial crisis, general uncertainty, microshorts have just ballooned in popularity. Now it is girls NOT wearing microshorts who are in the minority. Think about it!! Makes my days in summer very difficult! Everywhere you look, girls girls girls, legs legs legs, asses asses asses. Crazy town, and you know I'm right! Even larger girls who should not be wearing such shorts in public are now under the impression that they can pull this look off. When society is finally doomed, you'll see that every girl is wearing them.

I went to this wanky store today. It's called Unit Concepts as I had to help people (against my will) during the boxing day sales. Let me just say that this store is what's wrong with the world today. Overpriced, pretentious, tacky and just outright dreadful homeware/kitchenware/crapware - you name it, they have it. The people, don't get me started on them! The well to do numbskulls who offer nothing to society, but just take take take. More concerned about theirs, what they have, what more they can get. Sickening. That didn't stop the hotties showing up though. Damn nation. I should have shaved. I should have showered, I should have worn some decent clothes. Hahahahahahahaha, oh well. I'm nodding my head like yeahhhhh! You know I'm gonna be okay?? Oh my god, asstastic, hahaha.

I've got the Hannibal Quadrilogy (at least I think it's a quad series now), to get through.

That's it for today. Have a nice day folks! Joaquin out.

Sometimes You Win, Sometimes You Lose, Sometimes You Have To Sing The Blues

And sometimes you really need to question what the hell is going on. I'm just in a state of flux right now. My mind cannot concentrate on a damn thing. My best laid plans are going to waste and I'm getting angry and unsettled.

The days are being taken away from me. I only get a certain number of days off per year, and they are being taken from me! I cannot enjoy my own time, my own piece of mind. Livid!!!!! Fucking livid here.

I realise I have been slack lately, and I did mention it before, but the update to the Joaquin Rate List (JRL) will be coming soon.

I was struck by a bout of nostalgia earlier. I was thinking about woodwork/metalwork class in highschool (around year 7 or 8). Anyway, my friend was slack and never finished his work, so I would let him take my works and hand that in to be marked. And he would get higher marks than me! Like what the hell?! We got arrogant about it, and one time I got something marked, passed it to him and 10 secs later the teacher saw it (again), and awarded it higher marks! It even worked the other way, when I would take his work and claim it as my own, I would get lower marks. We laughed about it at the time, but looking back, it really felt like I was discriminated against. So much for nostalgia huh?

Got up in some Wii Sports today, vs a bunch of kids (8-10 year olds). Hahah so I should have been nice and let them win, since it's Christmas and all, but I don't think that sets the right competitive edge in children. Wii Boxing - those kids just like to throw punches willy nilly, they don't care about accuracy, or openings. Work that dodge and block, wear them down, efficiency of movement don't get tired swinging. One big hit, they open up, you nail at least 3-4 more big hits in that range, work the advantage. To their credit, they did floor me a few times with some nasty body shots, but eventually I got up and it was just straight KO's in the first round for me. Beautiful.

Ahhh why am I so discontented with my life?? I need to get out of here. Another rut to be buried in. This is not welcome.

Joaquin out!

Routine is to time as inflation is to currency

The other seems to have disappeared off the face of the planet - but I do believe that is what he was intending through this trip, but it's all good. Getting away from the cyber world should be applauded when it's accomplished.

I've been watching movies as per usual - the latest being the live action Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Man I had no idea how annoying they were. I used to love those guys! But still watchable!

I bought some Nin 64 games - I'd never owned any games on it, and I did receive it as a birthday present, so I feel bad for never had games on it. But I got Goldeneye and Shadows of the Empire, so I am happy that work is over for this year and I can spend some time on games, movies and tv.

I have also procured myself ARMA 2, and Operation Flashpoint: Dragon Rising. Both games: awesome. I'm getting my butt kicked and I'm very happy about that. Re-learning tactics for gunpowder based combat. Hopefully should help my Empire Total War campaign once I get the net on the other computer.

So towards the end of my last week in my current area, I was actually busy as hell. My prediction was wrong, and I was working hard. Despite this, I still found time to read up on a lot of Final Fantasy! Hahaha, it was nice, considering I had not played a game since FF7-FF8. I, in fact, got in no chess at all and that is never good.

However, most of my work was not cerebral, in fact, a lot of it was mundane. I was copying file upon file. I spent all 4 days just sitting next to the copy machine and hitting start!! I was thinking "I went to uni for 5 years for this??!" It was hilarious, I actually felt really stupid.

My new team briefed me on the goings on in my area of responsibility for next year, and I have to say it is quite intense! Ridiculously busy, and I am really looking forward to it! I hope I have not slacked off the past 6 months with my cushiness.

Do I just have one of those faces?? When I go places with people, I am usually just ignored, or treated with emotionless disregard. But when I'm with other people, they get engaged with on such a personal level, it feels like I'm being spat on! Maybe it's just when I'm with girls and the other people are usually guys?? Nope, it happens when I'm with guys too! I thought I was affable and friendly - I guess I just bring a whole load of negativity with me wherever I go, and others don't like it! So I guess it is just me!

Oh well, that's it for now folks. Happy non-denominational holiday period to you all!

"Back and to the left, back and to the left"

Yes I just watched JFK for the first time and what an absolutely fantastic film. Regardless of what you think about the "conspiracy" or lack thereof, I think it was a well acted, well made film.

Attraction? What is it? Is it the thing that drives us? Not just on a physical level, but what attracts us to things? Activities, places, people. It's interesting, but I think it's just a phenomenon which cannot ever be explained.

Next week is my last week before my promotion, so I am looking forward to it and to tie up some loose ends work wise. I'm also aiming to get in a lot of chess and learn a bit about my new role before I start. I just know I'm going to be busy and have to learn a crapload of stuff I don't know how to currently do. But overall, it should be an easy week.

How come everyone that has gone to a public toilet cubicle before me seems to have had a bout of food poisoning or stomach trouble?? EVERYWHERE, always!! There's stuff that defies physics I tell you, even the magic fecal theory!

I think I've identified a key issue. I get an idea to blog, but when it actually comes time to blog, I'm just in a different frame of mind, and most of my motivation just goes out the window. I'm hoping to remedy that somehow, but I don't know how just yet.

Lately I have been getting absolutely smashed in chess. I put this down to my hastiness. Usually I have a lot of patience, but I am being rash with some decisions, and losing a lot of material on stupid moves, or losing valuable pieces on exchange which don't have the same value. I should re-evaluate and play properly!

I've also been listening to some J-Pop (japanese pop music) lately due to my anime loving. The melodies are fantastic, even if the understanding of the lyrics has been gone for some time. I really cannot speak or understand any japanese anymore.

Anyway, that's it for now folks. Have a nice day!

One day I feel I'm on top of the world

Yes I am forgetting to play guitar again but I will get back into the swing of things. Have had a dose of inspiration lately.

I have also been forgetting to note my blog ideas, cause I had some classics today, but alas, all disappeared into the dark recesses of my mind. To the anarchy they go now.

I saw a fire today, it was absolutely intense, it looked like it was going to engulf an office building next to it. I was wondering what the people inside were thinking, as they would have been able to see everything from the windows, and it was quite close.

People ask me whether it's better to be in uni or working. I have no honest answer. I like earning money, alas I don't spend much of it. I also enjoy not having work follow me home on weekends. I do miss holidays and sleeping in. I don't miss the stress of exams and assessment. I did not like doing all my work on the weekend, but I did like having my weeks free. I also enjoyed eating less cause I was up for less hours in the day, as such, I was in the best shape of my life during uni. Not so anymore!

Some people are disillusioned. I feel for them. That's something at least. Off to bed now. Joaquin out.

Day off

I took a day off at random to go visit a friend to play some games.

A lot of fun was had! COD MW2 is absolutely insane. I was playing it MP and it is even more enjoyable than the spec ops missions, I could not believe it was so good!

Also played GTA4 on the PC which looked even better than before.

I really must get the internet on my new computer so I can play this stuff!

I also wish a safe trip to the other on the other side of the world!

Look Alive; The World Is Changing

It was nice and overcast today. On days like that I always seem to feel more tired than usual when I wake up. I just don't want to get out of bed. Apparently this is the same with others. Why do humans sleep well when it's overcast or rainy? Maybe cause it's in our primitive brains that since it's overcast/rainy, it's a bad day to be out hunting so might as well stay in bed to conserve energy?

It was a busy day at work, which is always refreshing, as it makes the day go by quicker. I'm thinking next year, after my promotion, my slack days will be over! Oh well, it was fun while it lasted!

That's it for now folks. Joaquin out.

To Live and Die In L.A.

Such a bloody brilliant movie. I did not think it would be good. I was thinking it would just be 80's shlockness, but I was incredibly impressed at such a top rate thriller.

In some posts many years ago, I brought up the subject of Les Femme Anomaly. We used to be great friends. Then just before I left town she just stopped seeing me, then later on she just cut off all contact.

I don't know why this was. I felt upset and angry. Now I don't care. I realise what a bad friend she was, I was just blinded by my feelings for her. She forgot my birthdays, she'd never spend any time with me. I'd buy her heaps of stuff, and this was before I was working, so money was not in abundance for me in those times. What hurt the most was that it was completely juvenile and unfounded, something I thought she was not capable of.

I read somewhere that your circle of friends changes roughly every 7 years. I think that may be true. Then again, it would not explain the other and I, considering it's been almost 12 years since I met him. But I think of all the other friends I used to have and no longer talk to, or know the whereabouts of and I am just astonished how these sorts of things happened. I think they just shut me out of their lives. I would have kept them as friends, but oh well!! Nothing I can do about it now.

That's it for now folks. Have a nice day!

I Hope She's A Slut...

I really do.

There's a guy at work who outranks me (for at least a few more weeks anyway) - he has a girlfriend who is unbelieveably hot. Eurasian, just pure utterly beautiful. Anyway, I hate this guy, because he is a total doucebag alpha male type. He has one of those faces, the kind that you just want to punch.

So what did I do at the Christmas party? I did what any normal guy would do, I waited for her to get absolutely sloshed and then flirted my ass off with her in full view of her guy. Needless to say, he was not happy! Care factor zero - she is just that damn good.

Anyway, the work Christmas party was horrible. It felt like a third rate formal (prom) - complete with bad food, girls trying to be attractive and the same usual crapness. This was partly due to the fact that it was at the same venue that all my previous formals have been at!

Would I be better off with a bad girl? Sure you'd have to put up with her badness, but you'd stop worrying about the typical things.

I get to see the other tomorrow which should be good, and many a hi-jinks should be had.

Sometimes it's good to lose control. I was driving today in an area I had not been in for several years and the road was being re-done. There were no signs that there was no road up ahead, just some weird substitute with no grip. So I drive through and I lost control of the car twice. I fishtailed and slid out slightly - but it was fine cause I was going relatively slow. I corrected, turned back in and slid out again and then re-gathered. It felt good. I thought I had lost some of my driving skills that I used to have when I drove a lot in early uni days.

I'm bored with my life! I need a change! I'm just not feeling it.

That's it for now folks, have a nice day!

Joaquin and the Slackers

I don't even consider this working anymore! Am I so efficient that I can finish a day's worth of work within 2-3 hours? I knew I was awesome, and I guess that's why I'm being promoted!

It's wonderful, I can usually get in 2-3 games of chess per day, and then just relax. Today I spent a considerable amount of time on wiki reminiscing about Robotech and Neon Genesis Evangelion. What awesome shows! I'd advise all watch it now. Not just great action but wonderful human drama too.

Haha nope, nothing to report. Joaquin out!

Look Around & Ask Why

I'm just having an absolute blast blogging, so I should keep up this momentum while I can! Why do I blog? I have no idea, I don't think it's for the benefit of people reading this (obviously). I think it's just so I have a bookmark for some of the thoughts in my head, as I tend to forget things from day to day. So it's a nice reminder to have. As I've said a million times before, being introspective is a positive trait. However, it is important not to always get stuck in the past.

You know that since working in the Government, I have become privy to incredibly financially sensitive information? WAY more than I had for a year and a half of working for a financial services firm! How funny is that? I could be rich! Better start that short selling already, haha!

I am so happy that Malcolm In the Middle is back on tv and being shown from the start. I fell off the bandwagon some time back when the tv channel stopped showing it regularly. But I realised what an affinity I had with the character. Smart kid in a dysfunctional family. Yep that's me. I was there! I remember those advanced level classes! It was truly disturbing, haha it's good to reminisce!

Am I feeling numb? Have I just settled into this life of drudgery and given up? I hope not, cause even I don't know the answer to the question!

I had a funny training session at work today where some guy was pointing out all these flaws in the material provided at the course and these were absolutely brilliant pickups! I can't believe he was able to do that! I think even the hot woman running the course was impressed. Damn him!

Speaking of girls, where art thou? It's been a while since I've mentioned them! Yes, the Joaquin Rate List (JRL) will be updated shortly. The girl who had my job before I came in had a fantastic ass. Like INCREDIBLE. I remember one time I was walking to work in the morning, and she was walking in front of me and I was downwind of her getting a gentle whiff of her subtle perfume. I was walking in a happy dazed delirium of horniness. But I don't see her much, she's in a different area now! But having no talent at my work is good. I get more done and there's no distractions. Very different to my last work where we were all the same age. Here I'm the youngest by a good few decades!

So as I've mentioned before, yes a promotion is on its way to me! The documentation is on the way! When it comes through, I'm going to be dancing around and doing karate kicks and screams like when Gary Colemen was on The Simpsons "YAAAAH" "URGHH!" haha gold. The pay increase is going to be substantial!

Do we let attractive girls get away with more? Well besides being incredibly stupid? Haha wait a minute, I should qualify that I said girls and not people, cause I can only approach this as a straight male. I was waiting for my meal to be made (incidentally, at a Mexican place that the other introduced me to - absolutely fantastic), when an incredibly hot girl in front of me was taking ages to order, and seemed utterly confused by the simplest of questions. This would normally infuriate me, as I take only 30 minutes for lunch each day so I can claim more time back on flexible arrangements later on. This was eating into my time, and I would have been annoyed. But all I was doing was standing behind her admiring her well formed ass! Then I realised that I'm probably guilty of it too, so I cannot judge. But why?

That's it for now folks!

Have a nice day!

The guy looks like an ugly Ben Affleck

Friends who come with drama are a serious drain on my life. They stop me enjoying my own things! As I've said before, I'm a creature of habit, so when a disruption comes in the vein of you ranting about your problems and crying, needless to say, I am not impressed.

I need to cut these people out of my life.

I need to play some more guitar! I've been working on a few ideas that the other has laid down several years back and I am quite happy with the results. I can get this done! I'm hoping to get at least 5 complete ideas (guitar/lyrics wise) done by the time the other gets back from overseas.

I've been specifically working on this bit with one of the best melodies that I've ever heard. I don't know how the other came up with the right combo of chords but he did, and it's bloody fantastic, and a real pleasure to find complementary notes and chords to go with it.

I am also a big fan of what the other has done in terms of fixing up the comments section/procedure - it is a hell of a lot easier to use and better than everything that was there previously.

It has been a busy day at work, I just knew that things would turn out like that but I'm happy, I'm hoping to finish the big projects I have on my plate at the moment before we break for the end of the year. After that I can rest easy.

That's it for now folks. Have a nice day!

I will live with this forever!

It's going to be one of those weeks, I can just tell!

I should never take a day off! The whole place just falls apart without me!

Oh, I'm being promoted. Fastest promotion ever thank you!

I do rock.

Indignation

So what I thought was going to be a relaxing trip was in fact, one of the craziest brutal experiences I've ever had. I went to help friends move places (as they had helped me previously). Now, the killers: they had STACKS of stuff; they were moving to a place that was at least 50 minutes drive from their current place; they live on the top floor of a 4 level apartment complex; there was no elevator; they did not hire removalists to do most of the removing; and the place they were moving into was in a fair state of disrepair.

Goddamn, that's not even the half of it. The first night was ok cause I had gotten there a few hours before bed time anyway. Then bam, early morning, up and moving and this pattern did not end until 2-3am. What's worse is that they had a lot of old heavy stuff that they did not need or use anymore, but they refused to throw them away for some unknown reason. Therefore, I was forced to lug this stuff, dust and all into a van and then endure round trip after round trip into a dusty place. Did I mention that I'm allergic to dust? Well everyone is to a degree, but when I'm surrounded by it, my eyes go bright red, my nose runs and I sneeze like a mofo. So I had to put up with that every minute, and on top of that, I got very little sleep due to continuous early starts, and the insane heat which was exacerated by the lack of a fan. Needless to say, I am sore as hell now, after 2.5 days of this insanity. The lack of net was good, but since I was only doing one other thing, the variety in my activities was missing. I did also go without my watch for the entire time, which was refreshing. So just a few hours ago, I had my first shave since Wednesday night, and my first shower since Thursday morning. I'd like to apologise to the poor bastard next to me on the bus home. Not my fault buddy, I was working the whole time!

Moving can sometimes be a fun situation (as evidenced by a previous post when the other bought my old furniture, and real tetris was then played). But this was hell on Earth.

I've come to a realisation, I want to try to live my life with as minimal possessions as possible. Well besides the usual 21st century staples, ala tv, computer, game machine etc, but I want to avoid as much clutter as possible. Like, I don't require a bedside table, I've never had the need for one, and I hope I never will. Why do people need 2 dining tables? Informal and formal dining? That's stupid, just one for me thanks. I think you get the gist.

So I'm back, and tomorrow is already a work day, so the whole weekend has passed without some me time or relaxation, so I just gotta make it through this week, which is a pay week, and has a work function on Friday, so at least it's technically not a full week!

The other is heading off soon, so I'm hoping to meet up with him before he's out, and I can work on some more ideas. I am trying to pick up a non fixed pickup like the other had for his acoustic, so I can start overdubbing some guitars on our tracks.

That's it for now folks. Have a nice day! Joaquin out.

We need to justify this...

I have to sing the praises of San Pellegrino juices. For those not in the know, San Pellegrino is some wanky brand of mineral water. However, anyone who pays top dollar for water is an idiot. However, their brand of juices is incredible. They have exotic tastes that are unique in the marketplace. I was introduced to it when I was dining at an Italian restaurant with a friend. I remember the night well because the food was good, and I tried the Limonatta flavour and it was awesome! Now I've also grown to like the Aranciata Rossa flavour. I need to get some more of that, but of course, it can never replace my beloved Vanilla Coke.

I will be heading interstate on Thursday to help some friends move house, so I will be out of town for a few days. It'll be good to get out of here for a bit, away from work, the internet and the like, and just enjoy some food, relaxation, and guitar.

The other has told me that he will be heading overseas in a little bit for a few weeks on some personal business. I am aiming to look after the other's place while he is gone, to make sure no harm comes to it.

Besides that, not much else to report. Just getting up in some guitar. Have a nice day folks!