Annie (or Alicia), are you okay??!

No, she's not. She was struck down, it was her doom! God I love that song, easily my fave MJ tune.

So what's news? Not much, just thought I'd let you know that I'm still alive and kicking. The other has been killing it on Twitter, which is good to see. Hopefully the other will have a post soon. But he has been living it up as he is currently indisposed so I hope he gets better soon.

So I'm just getting used to the monotony and drudgery of every day life. Wake up, work, home, procrastination. That's ok, but it can be a dream killer if you get too comfortable. As I've been back here for over a month now, I am still unpacking, and man I just have TOO much crap. If I moved out again within the year, or got engaged, I would be annoyed, cause I'd have to move it all again!!

I have just been so tired lately. I don't know how the hell it's happening, considering I got less sleep in Sydney. How do I start my day? With a scalding hot shower! Yes, it's winter at the moment, and the typical urge is to stay in bed and not go to work. But a scalding hot shower wakes me up nicely and keeps me warm till I get to work. A rather grotty side effect is that the skin in between my fingers peels away. But it's worth it. Maybe a cold shower would wake me up better? But I don't have the guts for that in winter!

I bought some more things. I now own a Washburn HM model guitar. Yes it is a Hannah Montana acoustic guitar, and it ROCKS! It's 3/4 size, but it plays well and sounds great. Awesome for the price I have to say. The amplifier was also fantastic. Even through my crap Jordin pickups I got some FANTASTIC tone through the clean settings. Nice jangly sound, fit for The Smiths I say!

So it's finally happened!!!!!! I have updated the Joaquin Rate List (JRL)!! It can be found here: http://dropc.blogspot.com/2004/12/great-fun-to-be-around-you.html. A few surprises there me thinks.

What I find interesting are romantic dreams. Sometimes with utter randoms. It's not about the things we actively want or pursue, but it's what the subconscious desires, things you didn't even KNOW you wanted. It reminds me of the Red Dwarf novel Better Than Life, where they are stuck in a virtual reality game that's highly addictive. They're talking about the evolution of the game and they said the first models were unplayable because it just gave you everything you wished for. When the second model came out, it tapped in to the hidden things and became so addictive, it was lethal.

Anyway, that's it for now folks. Have a nice day!

Uncomfortable in the silo - cause it's my job to shine the guillotine so the victims don't complain.

Haha, as you can tell, most of the subject headings for my posts are either song titles, lyrics, quotes, or like this one, random. I enjoy.

I don't know if I addressed this previously, but I would like to bring it up again. Before I left to come back home, my friends used to say that this place was a scummy town. I obviously disagreed with the statement. However, since I've been working in the city, and am there during the day. I really have to say, this town has HEAPS of scummy people! I think Sydney obviously has more, but due to the spread of the city and the crappy transport, they did not appear in the city all too often.

However, now they seem to be everywhere! What a world! Home is much smaller, and transport is more reliable. Therefore, they are free to roam the wilderness and annoy people.

The other has made some brilliant points in his last few posts, and I will address these on my blog review. Remember, it will take place in September, so look out for that. It's gonna be a mammoth post, maybe even the biggest post ever!!

Alright that's enough from me today. Have a nice day folks!

To geek or not to geek...

People always struggle with things and for the last while, I've been struggling with what I do. Is it really important for me to focus on all the things that I have learned to do in my past? Or is it alright to super-specialize? I've been wrestling with this for the longest time. Am I really appreciated as an employee, or am I just being used for the things that I can do for them in the time being? Can an employer ever have the best intentions for you at heart or will they always try and handicap you so that it works to their advantage? These are all questions that have no straightforward answer. We humans don't like uncertainty. I for one hate it...

Is it enough for me to be the 'Resident Geek?' Or should I keep trying to push myself into other branches of marketing which I am good at and am more trained than others that may be doing that. If I don't, am I wasting away my potential? The good thing at the end of the day is that I have skills in both of those sets, so sooner or later someone else must see what I am capable of doing and offer me a good opportunity. Sometimes I feel I just have to learn a bit more patience and I'll get rewarded. Time will soon tell.

For the time being, I have acknowledged my inner geek and decided to do whatever it is that I am interested in for the time being. I can keep to my own space. I can write about whats going through my head. I will twitter. And I will have my face on that book...

Turn your head around

Went to some art galleries this weekend. I've discovered that I don't like portraits or newer art. Installation/Sculpture art is crap. As is cubism and post-modern art!!!

I like classical art, now THAT takes skill.

In other news, I bought a Marshall Stack. Seriously! An MS-4! Haha yes it is a micro amp, but goddamn that thing is INSANE. It's loud as hell and it's got awesome harmonic response with high gain. Better than a lot of practice amps.

I also bought Michael Jackson's Essentials! Gotta say, it is the best compilation you can buy!

Anyway, I better get to chores and the like. Have a nice day folks!

I want to go to the place where dreams die

So I have been on an MJ bender as of late, which is fantastic, because with all the commotion, I have discovered even more great songs to get, in time.

I am still saddled with Cable internet, but that is ok because I should catch up on games, movies and tv shows before I even look at getting some ADSL2+. Then again, judging from how much stuff I have to watch and do, that is going to be a LONG LONG time away! Haha.

I seem to keep getting lost in trivial things at the moment, and that is not helping me get things done.

The exception to that is work. I felt I wasn't being productive, turning things around in one week to one and a half weeks. Apparently this is spectacular in the public service. I do rule.

Work is strange. I have had some real work which I liked. There's heaps of reports too! I'm also kept away from clients. I have a lot of autonomy in this role which is good, but I am lacking authority and power, so it's made up. I am enjoying pointless "busy" work tasks which eat up most of the day. Then it's home time! I also have a day of flexi leave saved up, so I am hoping to cash that in soon.

I am playing guitar and have some ideas ready to go. Just need to get some of my speed and dexterity back and then I will be feeling fine. So I have some chords back, but not the nice experimental chords I was playing around with when I was still good. Decent lead playing is still elduing me thus far though.

The other night I woke up at around 2am. I did so and then I just felt this terrible feeling of fear. I don't know what it was, and I can't explain it at all. But it was an odd feeling to be so afraid for so long over nothing.

So previously at work I had a massive space near the back of the office, with window views of the city. Then they decided to move us around for "team cohesion" and now I have a TINY desk right in the middle of the MAIN walkway that everyone has to use. Now everyone can see my monitor and I can no longer procrastinate or just stare into space (even though I'm actually thinking about how to do my work). It's horrifying. It's also quite loud, which is distracting. Oh well, until they move us again (soon hopefully)! A girl sits behind me, and because of the way she's oriented, she can ALWAYS see my screen and what I'm doing. It's like having someone looking over your shoulder 24/7 through your work day. Talk about Big Brother. The whole space is also claustrophobic, cause there's a massive pillar right next to me which just invades my workspace. I can usually stand claustrophobia, cause I like cosy spaces, but not things where I need to feel space!

So while I've been gone, my Lego has been broken up and thrown into a bag. Granted, I had not played with it in more than a decade, but still! It's my lego, I spent countless hours building that stuff, and it was a lot of fun and I guess my childhood memories are now in that bag too. I guess I had been avoiding the "getting old" moment. But with a quarter of a century creeping up on me, it's a bit hard to miss. Not much more of these ahead of me.

Anyway, I have things to do! Till next time folks, have a nice day!

And she had the bluest eyes...

that I've ever seen in my life.

Executive Summary:

• Woah!

Hahaha! That's gold! I'd seen her once before, coming down the lift where she worked and she looked at me. Goddamn. The bluest eyes that just went through my soul. I couldn't think, I couldn't speak. I just went into a weird stupor for a day.

I thought about her for a few days afterwards just going "woah!"

So anyway, I was visiting someone when I saw her again, and she looked at me again. And I am now back in my stupor. WOW. I usually like dark eyes. But she had dark hair and fair skin, so with those shiny blue eyes, it's impossible not to see those eyes. They see you too. That's the killer, when you start ignoring your own set of paradigms in favour of others.

Anyway, while I continue my day-dreaming. Have a nice one folks. I just wanted to remember this!

Familiarity does not always breed contempt

Slowly. Deliberately. It is all coming back to me. Hitting those notes. Accuracy is the key, not speed. I am getting my chops back. Taking care not to rush, as I'd like to get it right!

I'm aiming for a relaxing weekend. Hopefully games and movies and nothing else!

I'd like to witness something amazing.

That's it for now.

The fracture of the fraction

Thirds are very interesting. I can picture halves and quarters and so on easily. But thirds. It's just so conceptually irregular. It's not a whole number. .3333333. What the hell is that? Even when you have 3 thirds (i.e. a whole), you don't have a proper number (.99999) - this only becomes one through rounding up. It's just so wrong!! But many things depend on this fraction.

Just a thought for the day.

Till the next post Have a nice day folks!

The kid was not his son

So Michael Jackson is dead. What a life! There is plenty to be said, but most of it has already been said, so I have nothing new to add. But it really is gonna suck without him, I was hoping for a new album soon (I was one of the very few who didn't hate the last album). Now that I have money, I also could have even gone to London to see one of these concerts. But that's life. You never know when it's going to be over.

So I've been getting back into guitar. I cannot play. I am down right AWFUL. I really need to start getting back into a little bit of play everyday and I should be good to go.

I am really loving The Gossip - Heavy Cross right now. It is really a blast from rock/disco (if such a thing is possible).

Anyway, I'm off for now! More stuff later! Have a nice day folks.