Estopped, In The Name Of Love

The cap has not been lifted!! They said the problem has been fixed from their end but no, I am still stuck with shite 7kpbs speeds. There are files I need to download from the uni website which are quite big so this just makes my work impossible. Someone is going to lose their head!

I have been working on a take home exam for the past few days (hence the lack of posts), but it's done and handed in so you can look forward to some big posting in the near future.

I gave an informal guitar lesson to a friend the other day and I was quite pleased. She picked it up rather quickly (despite having long nails on their left hand) and her progress was steady. This got me thinking, I could teach guitar to people for beginners and intermediates. It's not difficult and I would be getting moneyyyy! I like money! Speaking of long nails I've seen this clip of Dolly Parton with her ridiculously long nail extensions playing an acoustic version of "I Will Always Love You" and she was insanely good, fiendish fingerpicked parts and she could actually fret properly with the nails! I for one was shocked.

I keep hearing this awesome dance track which I know is old, on the radio a lot lately. It's this high pitched feminine falsetto with lyrics I can't decipher but damn I want to get the song. This is practically impossible since I know NOTHING about the song. I keep hearing it at 3-5am, when there are no DJ's to announce what song it was called dammit!

The plan is to get some rest in, so I'm off. Expect some good posts soon though. Have a nice day!

Busting A Cap!!!

I'm very annoyed!! As my title would explain, I have been capped (no I have not been killed in a gangland style slaying from East Compton yo), but I mean my ISP has capped my Broadband speed to 7kbps!!! What the hell??! Their logs show that I have done 7 gigabyte in 2 weeks which is IMPOSSIBLE, since I have been at school and a lot of their records show that the times that these occurred were when I was at school. There's also some insane disparities, ie that one record shows that I was somehow able to download 500 megabyte in 25 minutes! Hell, if I was getting those speeds I would stay at home all day and just download things I don't even need. Luckily we called them and they acknowledged that a mistake had been made and they're going to rectify the situation. But damn, if I hadn't noticed, I'd have been pissed because it's mid month and being capped at 7kpbs is not a good way to spend the class free period!

You know hotel rooms aren't really soundproof? The rooms themselves may be insulated and what not, but bathrooms aren't! You'll notice that there are air vents above and blow the ceilings and floor and if you listen carefully you can hear voices from the people in rooms above and below you! How freaky is that? Haha so note to you, don't engage in any salacious acts in hotel bathrooms!

I'm trickling by with the work so I don't feel too lazy which is delightful. Ummm, not much to report. I have a birthday party tomorrow night to go to. I haven't seen this person in years so it should be interesting. That's it for today, have a nice day folks!

You Strike A Smile In Me...

"I open my heart to view the darkness that lies inside,
And inside I see a light in which I can confide,
These hands they have felt the power in her design,
And in your eyes I could feel a kindness I can't define,
So why can't I express myself, like the way I had in mind,
Maybe I'm searching to hard, maybe its something I'll never find,
Wish I could pour my emotions on these four chords that I rhyme,
But to try this hard to find what I already know would be such a crime,
So I'll try not to make things fit, they already do, your hands in mine,
I'll take my thoughts and blurt them out on the line.
I choose life, cause death is blind, and darkness is hard to indentify,
And I need you, and its a thought I can't defy..."


Firstly getting up at 6 in the morning has gotta stop. I'm sick and tired of waking up and having nothing to do, yet I can't sleep in through the day like I would like to. I prefer the nights, but I'm not given a choice at the moment, so I guess its time to make the most of the time that I have. Wow, almost a week of my two week break is gone. Where did it, and what does it mean?? Its a shame that I feel everything means a thing. They should, but sometimes its perceived in a manner that is a crime. For me it means a week closer to when i can break free, and get back to where I want to be. In the arms of home. The thought keeps me ticking, better not explode prematurely.

In the italics is a verse or something of that sort, right now I guess its just a prose piece thats traversing thru my head. I think its easier to identfy what you're thinking about if you write it down on a piece of paper, so there it went. Left is Dulce, the better half of me. Its hard not being with her, things just aren't right. But I'll have to deal with that like I do everything else (I still dont have controll of the universe, but I will I promise you I will!!!).

Another day where I wake up and wonder who the hell I am. Don't you hate it?? Time to deconstruct myself and identify what it is that I really am. Have my favorite band playing on repeat, and trying to figure out who the hell I am (Third Eye Blind, never not wanted to hear their music, my classical solitude music). And what did I realize?? Nothing, I am still the same person I always was, probably with more baggage, but thats about it. People who know me probably know who I am a lot better than I do. I think I'm less honest with myself than I am with other poeple. Should conduct an experiment on myself. (So how would you like to be the genea pig for todays expriment master knaves?? Sure... as long as there are no anal probes to be used....)

Yes, that is right, third eye blind is still rocking my streo as it used to back in 97. Somethings never change, the way I feel about certain things never change. I can choose to ignore it for a while, but I always come back to what is good to me. No one argue that the self titled release was the best album that jenkins and the boys put out. So in remenicent memory, and a song that captured my thought, here is the lyrics for "Thanks a lot"....

THANKS A LOT - Third Eye Blind (1997 Third Eye Blind)

It's all in your mind,
she said the darkness and the light
the clock it bleeds for you,
but you never got the time in right
i woke you up and i slit the throat of your confidence
and we laughed in the night, and i felt all right.

All hands on deck boys'
cause this ship was made to sink
your swabber salutes you now,
but i know what he's thinking
i woke you up and i slit the throat of your confidence
and we laughed in the night,
and it felt all right.

Thanks a lot
Thanks a lot don't even go
Thanks a lot

The clothes she wears mis-fit,
and she's nervous when she speaks
her zombie mom and dad live in a separate house of freaks
woke you up and i slit the throat of your confidence
and we laughed in the night, and i felt all right.

Thanks a lot
Thanks a lot don't even go
Thanks a lot

I'm the one for you
cause i know all the dirty things you like to do
i'm the fear in your eyes
i'm the fire in your flies
i'm the sound that buzzling around your head.

Thanks a lot
Thanks a lot don't even go
Thanks a lot

Go have a listen to it if you get the chance, for some reason this song spoke to me, so I had to put it up. Or maybe I've just lost it?? None are hard to believe. This morning as I sat up having nothing to do, I was looking over my friends blog, and decided that I too would waste some time on blog things. Haha so I did a million of questionares. I had to change some color schemes to make it look good. Sorry, if you guys are pissed off down at blogthings, but it looks better with the layout. Cheers... And here are a few of them. You'll get to know me a bit better thru that. Though, you dont know me one bit if you've never met me... Your loss...

Your Birthdate: September 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride. Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing. When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it. It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious. Your strength: Your warm heart Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions Your power color: Black Your power symbol: Musical note Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Theme Song is Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd

"There is no pain, you are receding. A distant ship's smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves." You haven't been feeling a lot lately, and you think that's a good thing. The comfortable part is nice... but you should really work on numb.

What's Your Theme Song?

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Your Luck Quotient: 67%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

Your 2005 Song Is

Beverly Hills by Weezer "My automobile is a piece of crap My fashion sense is a little whack And my friends are just as screwy as me" You breezed through 2005 in your own funky style!

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

Your Heart Is Purple

For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection. If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength. Your flirting style: Sincere Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive What you bring to relationships: Understanding

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get. You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them. The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase. You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away. You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance. Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't! You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors. Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor. You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

I have to admit, some of these tests have accurate results!!! Its quite scary what can be told about you by just answering a few simple questions. They already know too much, ok my minions, go out and use the MIB tool to erase everyones memories!!! :P Cheers people.

What Ever Happened To...?

You know what's ruining university for me? The assessment! I wouldn't mind the long days, early starts, evening finishes if it wasn't for the assessment. There's just so much of it. As a friend was telling me, it's not even apportioned properly. It's ALL due at roughly the same time. I think assessment really stifles creativity because it's marked against objective criteria. You deviate from it slightly and you pay the price. This just means more of the same old crap each year. How can minds possibly expand??

We've got a few of those new halogen bulbs in the house. I do not like them!! I know they are environmentally friendly, cheaper and last longer, but they have such TINY power output. It's like I'm living my life in a crack den or something! The light is also different, it's more pure white than this weird orangey stuff of normal bulbs. I think my eyesight is suffering as a result. Gimme the good ol' days of the powerful bulbs!

I've seen a few episodes of the Australian version of The Biggest Loser and something interesting struck me. Fiona - she's a very pretty girl, there's no denying that. But she's also a fatty! This got me thinking, even if a girl has a very pretty face but she's fat, she will not have much luck unfortunately. It's a shallow world, you usually need to have the complete package to succeed (mind you I have seen some exceptions which have made me stop dead in my tracks and gawk like a slack jawed yokel). But I have to admit I am a closet "advocate" of such things as I would not date an overweight girl even if she had a pretty face and a good personality. I'm shallow, I know. But I'm not a hypocrite, if I was overweight I would not be making such stupid demands. We've made a bet so I hope Fiona stays on the longest and loses the most weight because she is going to be an awesome hottie afterwards. Wow, after that spot of sexism (for which I heartily apologise) I shall move on to something else.

The other night I was up till 4am going through all my effects on my multi-fx pedal for guitar. I have found my favourite - the acoustic simulator. With my new guitar (more pickups and NOT single coil - thank god) it sounds pretty damn close to a real acoustic. Even tapped chordal harmonics sound fresh and lovely. Don't get me wrong, I will buy an acoustic eventually (since I can't get percussion noises out of an electric of course) but I am quite content with what I have at the moment.

I also had to get Audacity the other day so I could edit a school assignment. I recorded a few songs ages ago (from mic) cause my old comp doesn't have a good soundcard and Iwas just messing with those songs and it's just so awesome. Don't despair, as soon as I get the RIGHT adapter for my soundcard on the new comp, the other and I will eventually get a good tune in the BAG. We also should be getting a lot more stuff finalised, in order to decimate everyone! That's it for today folks, have a nice day!

Don't Open You're Mouth, I Know It All...

Last few days, are a complete blur. This is not nessarly a bad thing, since I'm on my two week break, there is no schedule, wake up when you want, do what you want, when you want it. Its brilliant, but it tends to get really boring really fast. Sleeping has taken up most of my time :P. So I decided to be a little more productive, and decided to design the blog template. It was the first time, I'd worked with CSS, but a days reading got me to where we are now. Hope you like it, it took me longer then I would have liked it to, but at least its done now.

Now with all that done, I need to find me a new project, or else I'll spend my whole day rolling around in bed wondering whats happening in the world, but again to lazy to do anything about it. Unfortunately I've run out of all essentials, food, and smokes. This is definately tragedy in the making. I guess I'll have to go shop today. ARRRRRGGGGHHH interact with people, what??!!?? Hahahah...

Got myself stuck in 24 again. What is it about this show that you start watching it, and you just cant seem to break free from it. I wonder if they have any subliminal messages that they send out during the show?? If they dont, hell that would be a good show to put it on. Oh shit, now they might, oh well!!!

Guitar, been writing a lot of random stuff lately, quite different from the usual stuff. Have to back the other yep, inverse chords are they way to go. I like my music with character. Oh shit, I had the best couple of lines in my head last night, now I'm going to have to stretch my brain to find out what it was.

I can't wait till we live in blobs. What i'm talking about complete artificial envoronment or atmosphere call it what you will. I am sick and tired of the cold. What happed to the sun?? I miss getting burned by it (though I dont really get burns). Freezing to death would be shit lode worse than Burning to death. Hmmm calls for an expriment (No I wont really do it). But yes, I want blobs, and teleporting machines. And must learn the art of mental telepathy, could come in handly, but have to put a serious firewall on it, dont want all my thought to go spreading about. Who knows?? Someone else may become the ruler of the earth!!! Can't let that happen!! (shhhh they dont know you're planning on taking over the world, master.... Oh yes, how can i forget...)

One of my friends, who used to live next to me last year, Canadian Lisa, she buzzed me a couple of days ago, and told me that she saw me on her campus. :S I am in australia, how the hell could that have happened. There are a few explanations. Number one, There is someone else extremely good looking like me, number two, one of my clones went missing (shit better take stock of them), number three, I can teleport when I am sleeping, and travel the world. Damn, I hope its the third one. Don't worry we'll find out sometime soon, I have three monkeys and a lizzard working on it... If only they spoke english...

Alright, time to take a shower, and look alive again, I could be passed as a courpse right now I think. Have the most awesomest day, go out and do lots of things, so I can feel good about doing nothing, while convincing everyone else to go be very productive. Quite benevolent arnt i?? Quite so I must say, not a bad bone in the body!!! Cheers...

Nolwenn Ohwo!!

Today was another crappy day uni wise. I had to go in and get an interview done for an assessment piece and it was just a comedy of errors, one after another that saw me running across town TWICE, but I don't care! It's all done now and I can rest easy (a day early too)! Is it a bad thing for another piece of assessment if I handed it in 3 days early (first one in mind you) and everyone else had no idea how to approach it??! Haha I think I should be fine.

A lot of my friends are overseas on exchange this semester and it seems that they all get graded on a pass/fail basis. This means that they can party like mad people as long as they do the minimum amount of study required. I like this. Why is this system not in place universally?!

So, with that annoying shitty piece of shitey shite shite out that assessment out of the way, I am pretty much free to be lax with the remainder of my assessment over the break as long as I dedicate two hours a day to some light work. As mentioned before, I do intend to get a lot of guitar in and some "other" time! Already made a plan to go and see an old friend on Monday with the other and get some guitar in as they have just acquired an old axe and I look forward to putting her through her paces! I must say that I am LOVING the new blog template. How the other has learned to program in CSS I'll never know! The blog is truly unique now!!

There was an incident near my area today with a police initiating a lockdown. Apparently there was a firearm involved and a standoff between police and someone in a house...which later turned out to be empty. However, this isn't a commentary on the ineptitude of the AFP...cause I love you guys...even with your inherent inability to solve major crimes! This entry concerns the lax gun laws in Australia. You'd think after the Port Arthur Massacre that people would actually give a crap about not wanting to get blown away while going about their business but no, people don't! Hell, there was even a Primary School involved today! Luckily nobody was hurt but someday we all know what's going to happen. Due to the lawmakers inability to protect their constituents or the people they serve, that's what has to happen for change to happen and quite frankly, that disgusts me. We need to get above this maxim of "if it ain't broke, don't fix it" - that's just a load of bull. People can just grab guns anywhere!! Why aren't guns banned in the public domain? I don't want to hear any crap about this. Australia doesn't have a force like the NRA, lawmakers should be free from intimidation to carry this out. Other guns should be registered and be collated into an international database. People have the means to let this happen, but if you don't want to throw money at their other causes then it won't happen! It's great, now any mofo walking down the street can potentially be carrying a gun! Freedom, tra la la la, I love it!! Freedom in it's truest sense is a form of oppression. All things being free in the natural world, the gazelle gets killed by the lion does it not? We are humans, not animals, we have a duty to protect those that need it. No, not by letting everyone arm themselves to the teeth! Heard a good quote the other day "democracy - 2 wolves and a sheep deciding what to eat for dinner".

That's it for today folks! Have a nice day!

We woke up as men, but tonight we sleep as killers

Yes oh yes, the two week break is here and I have realised that I will have to do assessment throughout, but it won't be that bad and I can do it on my terms.

Today had to be the absolute worst day I've ever had at university, and it wasn't even a day with classes. I went in at 11am to finish off a piece of assessment that's due next Friday, but I wanted to get it done so I wouldn't have it hanging over my head. I had to gain an interview with a small business owner or worker about the IR changes. Nobody would talk to me about it!! I squandered so much time. Then later on I had to walk back and forth between campus and school to buy a damn thumb drive so I could transfer my other interview files from school to home. There goes 50 dollars down the drain, but hell I could always do with a thumb drive, never know when it will come in handy. I also felt like I was going to be sick - exorcist sick throughout the whole day and was just not pleasant to be out of the house. So all in all I got NOTHING done. 5 hours down the drain, woohoo!

I've seriously had it with university!! I wouldn't mind being kicked out, but what for?

I have a confession to make. In the later part of the holidays I got into christian music! Before you crucify me (OHHHH the irony is just killing you isn't it), it's actually GOOD music that stands on its own. Bethany Dillon, Barlowgirl, you name it! But wow the voice on Bethany Dillon is just amazing, I can't believe she's only 18, she sounds so mature when she sings and she can play an acoustic guitar admirably. I've never heard a voice as good as hers, she just conveys brilliant emotion in her lyrics, but the focus is not lost on the music so I just love it. But they are really good, any other christian music is a little too insane for my tastes.

The other is correct. Inverse chords are the way to go. He uses them to brilliant effect and it is excellent for composing direct counterpoint music. Don't ask me how, but the other has somehow figured out how to IMPROVISE counterpoint over my lines and I am scared. I just have no idea how to compose opposing lines that come together over a musical boundary, but he has managed to do so and I am amazed. He is genius, by using inverse chords he is thinking outside the box and extending his knowledge of the instrument. When you're not locked into boundaries and set ways of playing you just get infinitely better. Most people you hear on the radio never learn past what they figured out in their first year of playing and it shows. It's painful.

Inverse chords are different. They don't carry a song. They ARE the song, they set the theme, create atmosphere. I like 7th chords cause of the jazzy/classical feel that they give out. I think besides your usual open position major chords and minor chords everyone should learn all their 7th chords. That could be a whole lifetime of albums right there!

Before I leave I must say HOW HOT IS MICHELLE RODRIGUEZ LOOKING IN LOST THESE DAYS??! I fancied her before, but these days, sheeeesh! The show should be called HOT. Why can't I be stranded on an island with her??! Hehe, have a nice day folks!

Miles To Go Before I Sleep...

Woke up this morining, not happy at all. I hate it when I have to go do some work. Don't we all. Well in this instance, it wasnt really work in the first place, but it had to be done. A photograph is due tommo and I still hadn't taken one for the project. The theme being on the road, what better way to get that done than to take a bloody road trip (And if bloody offends anyone, well you can go to hell, the ad campain is fine, leave it alone!!). Morgan and I decided to go on a road trip just outside of canberra to take a few pictures of whatever looks good. Chay unwillingly joined us, but hopefully didnt mind the trip. A perfect day for a drive, and whats more I have the pictures that i needed. Some of them are posted throughout this entry.

Its starting to get cold here, and thats never good, that means that during the day, i have to carry a bloody jumper, and at night, reguardless of weather i am wearing one, its going to kill me. I think this is the best time to quit smoking if its ever a good time. But for me, naaahhh enjoying the smoke way too much for my own good hahaha. People who dont smoke like mister striped shirt who always give me and micheal hell for smoking, will never understand what a relief every cig is to another monotonous day. Two week break here I come, finished all my work before I have nothing to do but kill time, but in this moment I am happy. Its like a lode has been removed off my chest.

Its been forver since I actually went to be earlier than 10 o clock, but this week has been extremely taxing on me, and hence bed at 9:30 sounds just as good. Good sleep is important some wise man once said (or atleast I think some wise man said that, next thing I know, I'm quoting a dumbass).

Well here are the pictures I am thinking about printing for my assignment. I have to print one large copy, so post a comment and let me know which one you like, and I might take the comments into consideration. Well I am buggered, off the count the sheep...

Procedural Disillusionment

Good to see the other returning with yet another awesome post. I think I need the other here in order for me to get off my lazy ass and blog. It's inspiring I tells ya!

You know what I keep forgetting? That I keep thinking that I need huge chunks of time to blog. That's not true, especially since I hardly have much to say these days anyway. So in little breaks, be it 20-30 mins I should blog a lot more. I certainly hope that doesn't become an empty gesture.

So it's happened again. After trying to play my electric guitar like an acoustic (damn you Michael Hedges), I have lost fine pick control. I can strum fine, but single notes in quick succession stop me dead in my tracks and I have a habit of continually dropping my pick. In the break I shall endeavour to give equal practice to both finger picking techniques as well as my fine pick control. It's not cool, I worked so hard in the summer holidays to play thunderous notes a plenty without resorting to legato, and after a lot of work I hard them down (even with a 16th note feel), and now I am tres shite. It's ridiculous. I'm just too lazy to pick up a 1mm plectum off the shelf! I grew out my middle and ring finger nails for the express purpose of hybrid picking ala Eric Johnson, buy now I just use those as my secondary picking fingers and my middle nail as a makeshift pick, it's not cool!!

Got Advanced Tax Law essay out of the way early, and handed it in 4 days before it was due. My other piece of assessment is on the backburner, since the whole class was given an extension. However, I must get it done before the week is out since I have a take home exam next week. Seriously, what the hell is the point in a take home exam? As if people aren't just going to get into groups and copy each other like mad fiends. It's just a group assignment handed in individually in the end! It's my first one, and what astounds me is that people who have done them before say it's quite possible to fail!!

Also want to buy an electro/acoustic guitar soon. Hopefully cheap and nasty (preferably second hand) because in all honesty they do sound "fuller" and more authentic than the expensive and new pieces of carbon fibre insanity. However, I do have my eyes on that Kaki King Ovation Roundback copy.

My MP3 player died, and I am still waiting on that to be fixed, so I am without music at school which SUCKS horribly. Speaking of music, everyone must listen to Blindfolds Aside by Protest The Hero. Apparently this whole new scene is called Mathcore, and it's about technically complex, atonal music and I am just loving it. I hate irregular time signatures in drumming (as Dream Theater attests), but when the guitar lines follow the irregularity, it is just amazing to hear. These guys must be commended, I don't know how on Earth they can remember all the variation on rhythm, but they are young guys that can play their instruments well and I think that's something horrifically missing in the mainstream music scene these days (especially punk, which these guys belong to).

As mentioned by the other, he has the brilliant plan of learning a classical instrument. This scares me. Classical instrumentalists are absolute freaks when it comes to music theory and playing techniques and general music practice. They're just too damned good. So hopefully I can scam as much technique as I can off him! If I ever went classical, I would go Niccolo Paganini and hit the violin (yes I know, just so I can use pizzicato techniques and just play it like a guitar)!

I really am looking forward to this break. It's a shame it's only two weeks, since I am really sick of university. I've also come to learn that Motor Ace broke up after the release of their last album. I am disgusted with Australian Radio practices, who gave no promotion and barely any airplay to the new album (which in some way contributed to the breakup). But that's just crap on their part. I think on the whole, Australian music sucks. It's pretentious and inaccessible, and basically just a wanky way for an artist to indulge their stupid eccentricities. Motor Ace was the only great Australian ROCK band of the 90's and millennium. People complained that nobody supports Australian music, well they had a good chance with this album and they did not do it, so they can go and screw themselves!

I had to go to college for an interview the other day and it was shocking. There's hardly any teachers around from when I was there (granted I left four years ago and none of my teachers were young). But that's not what frightened me, it was the kind of students that we now have there. It's basically turned into the south side of the Bronx and I'd just like to know what the hell is going on. Is there no individuality in today's youth? They're just a homogenous group of losers. However, I did take a tour around the music dept there and I saw a goth girl who was engaging in what I call "show off fake tapping" where you just fret all six strings with the right hand, and just engage in some legato nonsense with the left hand wherever. I was impressed though, it is an advanced technique, and to see a girl wield it in a tasteful manner was quite the turn on!

My bathroom has been re-tiled and I can use it again so I'm quite happy with that! You seriously don't know how many times I have to get up during the middle of the night to take a leak, I feel like an old man. Oh god, I also just realised how old I was when I went back to college. Granted, I do look extremely young for my age, but compared to all these other people I just felt so uncomfortable, like I was surrounded by children. Now I think about all these new sports stars and what not who are like children of 1988, and in some cases 1990, and me, being a child of 1984 (the last great year in world history for births, due to the other and I) just feel so superfluous, and it's really not a great feeling to have.

I can't let this happen, and I'll do everything in my God given power to make sure that I'm not rendered redundant in this awfully competitive world, no matter what it takes. Maybe in my head I still feel so relatively young. But in all my maturity, all my experience, all I've seen, it just doesn't feel right.

Crapola, this is a big post, so I think I'll end it here for tonight folks. Have a nice day! And I'm certain that after my take home exam, I'll have a lot more to say (I hope)!

Don't Ask Me How I Know, It's A Feeling When You're Down Low

On the verge to a 2 week break, just thinking about it puts a smile on my face, I dont god put it there, I think its just curcumstance. Haha cynical?? Me?? No way. Feeling good about myself this morning, and why shouldnt I?? As motor ace puts it, we should wear american shoes, so we can speak on anything and everything. For eveyone else there is always blogger, haha speak away...

Chords can seem boring after a while, and hence, we just have to use different ones. Had a sudden flash of inspiration (has been flowing low these days, maybe cause I'm away from it?). Inverse chords are the way to go, keep it simple, pour your heart out, seems to be the way to go. Today I have a day off, I think its finally time since I left Dhaka, to finish writing this song. Excited?? I know I am...

I've gotten soft, and damn it there isn't much interesting flowing thru my head these days, sorry for that. Maybe I should get some on that tonic into my body. Haha but its impossible to direct ones thoughts in a different direction that where its preoccupied. Hmm the person who invents that will be a millionare. As Michael says, its just money, its not worth living you're life for, there is always more.

Side note, Sweetness, I'll take your application in to ANU tommo, Just feel like being home today. When nothing else sounds better, its best to lock yourself up and do the things that you enjoy. Be it sitting on a rating site, and rate people all day (you know who you are :P) or like me, be a bum all day long. Is this a phase? When do I break out??

Had a dream last night, everyone I knew was there. Had a million conversations with my own mind, and loved it. Its the best, just interact with you're own head, and you'll hear what you want to hear. Maybe a medically induced coma wouldnt be so bad!!!

I've decided its time to start learning another instrument, not that I'll put my 6 string down, but need to learn how to play more instruments. The choices are either a chello, or violin. Chello because, the red head said you shred the chello, and I'm jello baby, Hahaha weezer, brilliant. Basically I decided that learing how to bow is the best thing I can take up. And also decided that its time to make a few dance tracks, havent done anything since delhi, and its time to start writing some grooves. Not that thats my intended direction for music, but its fun to write stuff, thats just fun. I need a fat set of headphones. Damn it, I'll have to leave home to get a pair.

Have this assignment due end of the week. Had the perfect picture for it, I would rate that picture as one of the best I had. But as my hard drive crashed, I seem to have lost it, and no matter what picture I take now, just doesnt seem to have the tranquility of that picture. Damn technology. Lets move back to the stone age. Hunt, eat, sleep, have sex, and thats all of your life. Brilliant!!! Who thought up organized civilizations?? Smart bastard~!~

Alright, now to inject my head with other peoples thoughts. Ahhhh brilliant. Music the great communicator...