Without and within, everything else is a sin. Things are just crazy hectic at the moment.
Not just at work, but at home too. There's not really any respite.
I can't enjoy anything. No rest, no relaxation. I can't even enjoy
sleep. It's difficult. I'm walking back to hell, and I have to
write a 6,000 word essay in just over a month. Luckily I've already done
some work. I'll be okay, I just need to make time to do it. Just
lock myself away and get it done. Guitar has taken a horrendous back
seat. It's going to be well over 3 weeks, if not a complete month until I
can play properly again. Who knows how bad I'll be at that point?
Is it all worth anything anymore?
But at least I've made a return to the gym, it's been 2 weeks without any major
physical activity and I'm seriously hurting. I'm sore all over.
Decided to change things up a bit before I'm done living where I am. Who
knows what will happen after that? I've got plenty of stuff to do, but I
just feel like blogging. Blogging will be tough over the coming periods,
but who knows. Maybe I'll be more prolific? It'll be like a return
to old times, it's a great procrastinatory tool. And I hope I just coined
a new term there, cause it sounds pretty cool.
What a weird world we live in. The other day, some blonde haired blue
eyed white teenager died from an apparent suicide, after being missing for the
previous week. And an older white teenage girl died after a toxic
reaction to illicit drugs at a dance festival. The issue? News
stories describing them as beautiful, even without quoting family members or
people who knew the deceased. It's not limited to these two situations,
either. Whenever a 'pretty' white girl goes missing or is found dead,
they will describe her as beautiful, and will claim a lot of air time and
resources from the authorities until they are found, or answers can be provided
to their death. If you are in any way, shape, or form, ethnic, then you
will be lucky to get a quick line in before the sports section in the news.
All this focus on physical notions of beauty and societal expectations on what
they consider beautiful. Couple that with family members and friends only
referring to these females as 'beautiful'. That's always the first
adjective they use! It's like their only self worth was tied into their
physical attractiveness. What's up with that? Then it's all about
the loss of that 'beauty' in the world. Wreaks of weird sexism.
Males don't get that kind of attention. People from non-white ethnic
backgrounds tend to be described as quiet, hard-working, or studious in similar
reports. That's just whacky.
Things are steadily getting worse for the youth. The job market has just
become impossible. There are jobs here and there, but there are just
absolutely hundreds of people applying for these roles. So essentially
employers can get their pick of the bunch, but I'm still convinced that it's
random chance. But having roles where hundreds of people apply does not
tilt things in your favour. On top of that, housing has become out of
reach for the majority of the population. Unless you want to live 1 hour
away from the city and commute to work every day (and pay a 'going to work' tax
in the form of exorbitant parking fees), then you are doomed to rent for the rest
of your life, at ridiculously high prices. Only a select few own the
total number of residential properties in the Western world. Property as
an investment is something I don't agree with, and it's something I have harped
on about many times so I won't go over it again. So now we're going to
get a lot of people, perhaps an entire generation who cannot get well paying
jobs, or afford homes. To me, a government is a failure if it cannot
provide safety, housing, and jobs. That's it. Those are the 3 linchpins
of good government right there. And most governments fail at this.
Okay crap, time is getting away from me and I have not been productive on the
work front at all. Type faster!!
Have we all agreed that idiot conservatives and climate change deniers who say
that global warming is a fallacy because it's getting colder in parts?
The key factor is that the climate is changing! Some places are getting
warmer, others are getting hotter. And it's not normal. So let's
just call it climate change, there's no arguing with that.
The living, we are such a smug, sentimental bunch aren't we? There's a
lot of hoopla about mass graves. People say it's a terrible thing to be
buried in a mass grave, and great efforts are made (especially in a war
context) to identify remains and give people individual graves. Now, just
moving away from the war context, I think the idea of grave sites are
silly. They only matter to the living because they like to go to these
places and reminisce. We're going to each a point, surely, where most of
the surface of the planet is covered in grave sites, unless we're just burying
people one on top of the other (not accounting for cremations here). And
then we tend to bury families in family plots, and couples next to each other.
Why? Because it's for the benefit of the living. The dead do not
care. You know what I want? Just bury me in the ground, no
gravestone or marker. Those who want to come can remember where they
buried me at my funeral. That's it. Once you're gone, you should
only serve to be forgotten, as should everyone. If everyone cannot be
remembered, then everyone should be forgotten. Even in death, apparently
we still all have to be individuals, with a sense of identity. It makes
no sense to me.
Tumblr is an interesting place. One one hand you realise that it's a
great big world out there, with a lot of difference. But you also realise
that there are so many interest groups and special classes within subclasses
and what not. So what does that mean for representative democracy?
I don't know, but I'm asking some serious questions here. I don't like
typical partisan politics, because it's really more about getting a one up on
the other party, and not about having good policies in place that actually
benefit society as a whole. Instead, you see pork barrelling, and certain
benefits only going on to the people who vote for these parties.
Therefore you get lowest common denominator politics, where both major parties
(whether Australia or American, or even British) start to meld into each other
and you can't tell the difference. Either way, the community as a whole
is getting screwed, because the politicians are pandering to the vocal minority
who indulge in ignorant and stupefying behaviour. But if democracy was
truly representative, wouldn't we have all these special interest groups?
If we dilute the pot, nothing will get done, because we can't please
everyone. So then where are you left? Anarchy. Sigh, it all
comes back to that, doesn't it?
This is turning into a crazy day, at least I'm being semi productive? But
I feel like writing here a little more. This is a crazy post isn't
it? I suppose this is what happens when you leave a bit of time, you
actually filter out the crap, and the cream rises to the top. Haha,
that's what it's all about - crap and cream. What's always surprised me
is how little I've known about my own neighbourhood. By that I mean the
neighbourhood where I grew up. I recall when we were in Primary School we
went for a walk for an excursion, and I was shocked that there was a massive
walking path right by my school. I must have walked past there every day,
but I did not know where the road went to. Of course it went to a big
mountain that I never knew about. Then I went for a walk after school
with a friend to go to his place. He lived on the street directly
adjacent to mine, but that street stretched for kilometres! I had never
known, because I had never ventured that way. So after school we walked
on the other side of the main road that divides our suburb, and I saw all these
new parks, homes, and streets that I had never seen before. It was a
weird exploration, I'll give you that. Even now, there's still heaps I
don't know about the areas I have lived in. Can you say the same?
Hold out for time until the next blog post? Cause I don't know when the
next one will be. I'll see you when I see you.
Better keep it there for now, gotta get back to work. 90 minutes to go?!
Sheesh. For once I'm ambivalent. Is it long enough to get everything
I want done? Or do I just want time to fly so I can just go home?
Joaquin out.
