Victim Of My Own Competence

Goddamn! I am so ridiculously busy it is not funny! I have to do all the work from my previous role as well as my new one until the old role is backfilled. But that's ok, I'll get it done, I just have to nut it out. It's a classic though, cause it's in stark contrast to my final days in my old job, just a few weeks ago! It's good to feel stressed now and then, it's where I thrive well. It lead my former team to say that I'm a victim of my own competence, as I did such an excellent job in my last role. I'll be travelling for work next week.

People strive for importance in the things they do, the things that will define them in the eyes of others. I feel I am lacking that at the moment. I guess I'll have to wait and see how long that lasts. Make a difference. Positive change and all that wanky jazz.

The other should be back fairly shortly, and hopefully should be updating you all on his adventures while he was offline.

I have been watching a lot of the Ultimate Fighter and UFC, and it's been brilliant because I used to do Martial Arts through college, mainly Kung Fu and Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, and it's brought back some great memories. While I don't enjoy the full on beat down of people for no reason, I do enjoy the strategy that goes on, and I love the submission rather than the KO. I remember when some of the bigger guys were laughing cause they thought the guard position was "gay", and then I invited them to take me on in a friendly spar, and even though they were stand up martial artists, they still took me down, and of course, they fell in my guard and I just cranked the guillotine choke (my personal fave), and they gave up in seconds, utter hilarity!

In fact I would like to fight all the people I've hated, or gave me a hard time in high school/college, just to see if I could do myself proud. It's not about the win, just to see what I'm capable of. Of course I have been out of practice for years now, and I'm definitely out of shape, but I'd think that I'm stronger than I've ever been, and I'm mentally more tough than I used to be.

You know what's wrong? When I realise that around, in cars and so on, there are a lack of suits. They used to be all over the place a decade ago, after all, this is a public servant town. But they've been replaced by bright yellow tops and utes. This has become a tradesman's town and that's why things suck lately. Tradies have no class. I'm grateful they get the job done, but damn man, tradies and laborers, money will not buy you class.

I engaged in a fun task the other night with a friend. I called it the "gallery of fail". Basically, I went through all the facebook profiles of girls who rejected me throughout my life (which was a bloody substantial number in hindsight), and sent him pictures, as well as a blurb about each girl and what went wrong. Some may think that it would be punishing or too emotional. You know what? I enjoyed it. It was cathartic. Sometimes, things turn out like they should. It was good to see how people have changed, and a lot of them got fat! But damn, some of them are as beautiful as ever. But oh well, things are fine!

I guess it's these people who make up the tapestry of your life, regardless of whether things are a little frayed around the edges sometimes.

That's enough for now folks. JRL update soon. Have a nice day! Joaquin out.