This Isn't Fun Anymore

But the key question that comes after it is whether it was any fun before? I don't think so. It has been a very long coma. The stuff of waking nightmares. What fresh hell is this? I believe I already know the answer.

Do you keep the memories alive or let them die a weird, unnatural death? Everything gets sullied by the end of it. Nothing remains untouched.

I still have those dreams, they're great. But everything is so far removed from reality, that by the time you are awake you know all that is lost and the spectre of the corporeal was a lie.

It was all there, I realised after the fact (hint hint) that it was a full 3 hours without thinking about it. And that's de me happy. So much made sense. Some of it? No, all of it. And I don't mind.

Sorry for not blogging while away. Everything is failing me, my body, my mind, and even wireless access, haha! More to come from me from later on I hope. Or it may be safe to assume I'm dead, and that's ok by me.

Anyway, I better leave it there for now.

Take care everyone. There needs to be some words. More words. There are just so many.

Joaquin out.

A Blog Like This

Heading off tomorrow.

I'll do my best to get some blogging in while I'm gone.  Thank god for blogger+, what a handy little program that is.  I'm glad I purchased it when I did.

In case I don't make it back, it's been good.  Sorry I never finished the JRL, but that's life.  I guess most of us depart with unfinished business.

Here's to you, and to whoever else reads this.

Joaquin out.

Fires For Days, All That's Left Are The Strays

Can you feel it in your bones?  Does it strike you down wherever you go?  Does it make you feel sick?  Only a few hours left until I'm done, but still so much to do.  It's been a busy day.  What can I say, it's been a busy few months.  It would be nice to just ease back into things, but that's not how things go, ever.  But I note the date, and how it can change things.  Maybe even for the worse.  No matter, it's all about the medium being the message.  That's what we can all determine.  Well that's what I learned anyway.

Just going to try and relax this weekend.  Not concerned with anything else really.  I just want to be gone and out of here and not caring about what's behind me.  I've just been so freakin' tired lately.  I need one good night of sleep just to get back into the swing of things. 

Here's hoping.

Joaquin out.

Race Bait = Race Hate?

We don't even deserve the chance.  I'm in such a bad mood.  I'm beyond tired.  I'm utterly exhausted, I don't even know how the hell I'm still functioning.  Sorry for the lack of posts yesterday, it was so busy that I didn't have a chance to write anything down for a blog post.  Came in late, was in meetings all day and had no time to get some actual work done.  Meetings are overrated.  That's something you will learn in time.  Nothing is happening.  I can't remember ever feeling this dead before.  Not as in tired, but as in zombie-fied and just not really engaging with the world.

Again, I'm perplexed.  On all fronts.  On all behinds, too, haha.  For whatever that's worth.  Hey, only one more day to go until I'm done.  I can't wait.  Although I do plan to spend the weekend packing and sleeping and not much else, really.

So today let's talk about racial dynamics.  If you look at places such as the bastion of stupidity, known as youtube or yahoo comments, you can see that there's a lot of repressed racism in the world, coming from mostly white middle class people.  Why is the world so out of whack?  They complain about black people, they complain about asians, they complain about hispanics.  They even complain about other white people!  Gimme a break!  There was an article the other day which said racism comes about due to fear of non-inclusion, therefore the only way to retaliate is by belittling other races.  I guess that could be true to some extent.  But racism is prevalent in pretty much every society.  But I don't think it's as insidious as it is with white cultures.  With whites, they supplanted and enslaved whole peoples and nations, yet in the 21st century, they are turning around and cursing immigrants who are taking their land, their houses, their jobs, their women.  The hypocrisy makes me laugh.  I think everyone needs to travel overseas, and get a perspective for things outside of their country.  You'll be surprised how it works wonders for people's presumptions and attitudes.

Before I go overseas, I should probably update the Joaquin Rate List (JRL) available HERE.  I think it'll be my last update for a while.  There just aren't that many hotties anymore!  Haha it's probably cause I'm getting older and more cynical.  I've also gotta get around to putting pics up of each person.  What's interesting is that as of last year, that particular post is no longer the highest viewed post on this blog!  How interesting!  Hahaha, I can't remember what is, but that post has way more views now.  Not bad at all.

The whispers start, and then they gather momentum.

I'm done with today, I hope I have something for tomorrow.

Joaquin out.

The Craptacular Crapopoly

Hahaha, this title hit me early this morning and luckily enough, I was able to remember it to use now.  It's been a weird day, and it's only 9:30 in the morning!  I felt strange, so I looked at my phone and realised I was in bed 6 minutes past my regular wake up time.  What happened?!  I assume I must have heard my alarm initially and then pressed snooze.  But I don't even recall that.  Maybe I even dreamed it?  Doesn't matter.  I made it to the gym, and had to skip a rep of weights so I could make it back home in time to get ready for work. 

The temperature has dropped 10 degrees overnight, and today feels so very strange.  It must have rained, it's overcast and dark and ominous.  What a beautiful day for a showdown.  It should really be Friday, like the ones I used to enjoy.  Maybe at that point I should have known that things weren't going to work out.  It's like the world holds its own secrets.  And we're not even witnesses to it.  It's like the end of the world today, and I for one just can't wait!  Yay!  I don't know what it is, I felt inspired to write today.  What do these people think of me?  Is everybody laughing at me?  I swear it's true.  Where do things stand in relation to each other?  Well, I suppose I better try to get at least some work done today.  Ahh, and just when I think things are ok, they blow up in my face and things get exciting and troublesome again.

This is all just random, sinister and confusing.  Something is up.  It's piqued my curiousity.  There is meaning in everything.  I will find it, and I will keep searching.

At the moment I'm reading Seinfeld and Philosophy.  It's a great book, and I'm enjoying the comparisons to Plato and Socrates.  Is there point in living a life that's unexamined?  Are these seemingly innane questions we ask ourselves everyday actually a lot deeper than on first inspection?  Maybe this is why I'm so introspective on here.  I don't get enough stimulation in my own life outside of this blogging world. 

Why aren't more people angry?  Why isn't there more resentment in the world?  The current system is so unfair.  The rich get richer, the poor get poorer, nobody cares.  There's just so much injustice, and what's worse is that we're now groomed to look away or ignore it, or worse, chastise those who are in trouble.  It's a sad state of affairs.  What makes me really sick is that these modern day conservative morons - you know, the hysterical hypercritical sort that seem to get trumpeted by FOX (and those currently forming our Government in Australia) are the complete opposite of what good, revolutionary and evolutionary governance should be about.  Take the American example - if the conservatives of today were in charge hundreds of years ago, America would still be under british rule.  Slavery would still exist.  Things would not have moved on and changed, and I can tell you in the mind of a conservative, they would be saying that things were better when those things existed.  And that is incredibly wrong. 

Nobody can be helped.

Joaquin out.

Parade Of Rejections

What is this evergoing world?  It's all so fickle.  Even existence itself.  And do we fight to cling on?  Or are we just doomed into thinking there's even a remote possibility of something more?  Got so much to do today ahhhh! 

At least I'm still coming up with new and exciting ideas on guitar!  It's time to put some of those ideas to use.  I'm surprised that I can still surprise myself!  New chords, new progressions, even different strumming patterns.  My brain training is paying off in spades.  The creativity is being unleashed here. 

Joaquin out.