From hells heart, I stab at thee

I know what’s about to happen. All the switches are flicked. I just have to turn the key. The destruction. The utter annihilation and devastation. One turn of the key and the missiles go. The world goes nuclear. Nothing will ever be the same again. The future is divided into before this moment and after it. 

I feel the responsibility. I feel the duty. I don’t want to do this. But I have to. There is too much riding on it.

My body shakes. I’m drenched in sweat. 

Tomorrow I turn the key.

Joaquin out.

The times, they are a wastin’

I’m not dead.

I’m annoyed that after all this time that Lizzy was right.

The algorithm has gone too far.

It’s too accurate. But it can sway things.

Not all of it is true.

I exist. Barely.

Bring back the rage.

Joaquin out.

Playing Dumb, More Of That To Come...

How sweet are those lies?

Only 9 posts last year?!  Wow!  I'm actually shocked I managed to get that much done.  It will probably be worse this year though.

Things are changing, a lot.  Probably the most they ever will in my life.  But that's ok.  That's just how things are. 

I'll try my best to write more later.

Joaquin out.

Twice Bitten, Never Shy, Hold Your Breath and Kiss the Sky

Everything just feels a little bit off.

I'm a little worn down.  I'm tired.  No, I'm more than that.  I'm exhausted.  I'm a zombie living less than an existence.  All about the $$$ and you'll see where that leads.

This is all a trap and none of it's real.  But we buy into the fantasy.  We literally buy into it.  What a strange concept. 

Do you ever regain the magic of what's lost?  I was thinking about this the other day, and I can recall things from when I was younger and easily made happy.  I remember playing pool with the other at someone else's University hall.  I played terribly, but we had a good time.  I remember being at a family friend's house in the middle of nowhere.  They had a Linux computer which I had to learn how to use.  And we found some VCDs (haha what an old format now, who remembers them!) and we watched The Lost World: Jurassic Park on a tiny monitor, sitting on the bed away.  The quality was dodgy (definitely an overseas pirated copy), and the movie is pretty average, but I loved it.  We must have started watching it at 10pm, and for kids that's pretty cool. 

Ahh what good times.  But now they're all very few and far between.

Something is really off with these blogger stats.  Why do we have so many hits from Russia, Ukraine, Chechnya, and Poland?  We have no material of any interest to people in those countries.  Something just isn't...right...But if you're here for legitimate reasons, welcome and enjoy!  I hope to visit someday.

What else is news?  I'm getting back into guitar very slowly.  Oh my god, my skills!  Where have they gone?  You really do need to practice.  Or you'll suck.  I'm learning more scales and trying to improve my theory at least. 

I'm done.

Joaquin out.

New Wave Poster Glaze

Blogger is doing some weird shit. Logged in and saw zero information against any of our posts. No views or anything. Sure that’s not right. Anyway.

Startling realisation for today: I’m concerned that my life is sliding far down the tube to resemble American beauty day by day.

What a thought.

Joaquin out.

Chuppa Chupp Buttercup

Back at the helm for a bit.

It's actually hard to get any time these days!  I just wanna blog, and like I've said before, I have some notes, but not actually the time to elucidate further and actually type this shit up.  It's a shame too, because blogging is cool, and very underrated.  Other forms of 'social' media are more aimed at instant gratification, and fakeness and acting according to other norms.  Blogging is just who you are, and people can take it or leave it.  No likes or follows or subscriptions here.

I did go a bit into the backlash against social media in the last post.  But I should provide some more detail now.  There's a fair amount of studies (and media) about social media being a contributing cause to poor mental health in young people.  I'm inclined to agree.  There's a lot of comparison and sizing up why your lives aren't like others.  I am very glad I grew up in a time before this crap.  At least I know what is and isn't normal. 

People just need to detox.  These companies don't really care about you.  If they did, they wouldn't go public, they wouldn't be trading in your data like you're a commodity.  It's a bit glib (and wrong to say), but this is the new slavery.  You provide the content and the data, they analyse it and sell it to advertisers (or just pass it on to the Government), and profit.

This year is going by way too quick!  Almost half of it gone already!  Blink and it'll be 2019.  That's our lives, gone in an instant.  Is there any relevance?

I'm trying to read more and get back into guitar.  I've lost a dreadful amount of skill unfortunately.  I used to be pretty up there with theory, but now it's pretty much back to basic and bullshit playing.  Need to remedy that ASAP.

I've seen a lot of commentary on universal salary lately.  It's a concept where the state no longer pays out welfare, and instead, everyone is guaranteed a certain salary.  This is great in theory, as there is the possibility for maintaining some work-life balance, but this is inherently incompatible with free market capitalism (and insane right wingers who benefit from the system despite not working hard, and will defend it, no matter the cost).

Think about it this way, if you want to generate the best possible return, you would factor in fixed costs.  If you knew everyone had an additional 10k up their sleeves, wouldn't you increase your prices accordingly?  Everything in society would increase in price accordingly.  And who profits?  The same bastards profiting now.  It's just another way of distributing wealth in the same inequitable ways, just with the fallacy that it's going to middle income/low income earners.

The system only works with price regulation, and price regulation is failing in every market in the West.  Nothing is affordable unless you are upwardly mobile middle-class.  This system is failing.

The system needs to be destroyed.

Joaquin out.